[Celena]

Well I did not step down from the board, I just wanted to let you know that. I guess a girl can't be in a bad place and have to take a break. I've already had 2 losses this year, my fibro is flaring up really bad and have been in allot of pain, allot of car issues, financial and so on. Trying to keep my head up and nose deep in work to try to avoid dealing with my emotions. I'm sorry for being so MIA, but I am in a rough spot and trying to pretend everything is hunkey dorey. I've yet to deal with this recent loss of my little one and July 30th is my baby's 2 year angelversary, my due date is only a few weeks away, then I have another next month and so on.... so that's where I'm at. I've been lying to people saying I'm fine when really I'm not. I've been hiding it well from my husband and blaming everything on my pain and work stress.

One positive note... I did pass my state tattooing exam and am a licensed tattoo artist!

My husband is determined we will have our earth baby, but I haven't even bothered testing to see if I'm ovulating at any time. I've not had a period yet either and have no idea how long it's been since my loss because of blocking it all out. Perinatologists said to go back to RE when I asked where do we go from here, he said perhaps she would look a littler deeper into the fibroids and DH should be tested. All my recurrent loss and infertility testing came back "within normal limits" but my platelet count is low and something else from what I read on my lab results when I did have them done.

Well I best jump off here at work and not supposed to use the work computer for personal stuff at all...

I love you girls so much and thank you all... maybe I'll beg them to give me a second chance again...

3.5 years late, Lord hav mercy on us and bless us with our Miracle.

[queenofthecastle]

I'm sorry hon I just wanna give you a big hug.

[~Tanya~]

[StaceygirlPa]

I wish there was something we could say or something we could do for you. You know all of us are here for you. We love you and miss you. I hope things start to calm down for you soon.

[*SamF*]

We love you and miss you! You have had so much going on in your life, and yes I think a girl is entitled to be in a bad place for a while. I hope you do get to go back to the RE, and they can give you some answers. Big hugs Sweetie!!!

Oh and super on passing your test!!! Wish you were closer next time I get one!

[lindsey2000k]

[doremi]

You are loved and missed. I hope you find time to come on here. We are here for you whenever you need us, and of course I for one would love to see you re-instated as a co-host

[pepper73]

It is absolutely understandable that you would need time with everything you've been going through. I really hope they re-instate you and you get to come back as co-host! I also hope that you are able to find a way to grieve your last lost. It's very important to allow yourself to feel those emotions and work through them.

Congratulations on officially becoming a tattoo artist! I'd love to see some pics of your work!!

[melissalaw]

I am so sorry for what you are going through. A m/c is so difficult to go through. Please take the time you need and know that we are here when you need us. Wish there was something I could do to make you feel better.

[SkyBaby]

I think you will have your earth baby. I'm praying for you Celena! <3

[.:Shortcake:.]

[EJsMommy]

Celena, I am so sorry for all that you are going through right now. Congratulations on passing the tatoo exam!!
{{{Big Hugs}}}

[mmllhh]

Celena, Seriously, take all the time you need. I completely understand where you are coming from. When you are going thru loss after loss, the last thing you want to do is come on here and see bfp's. I get it.
Hopefully they will reinstate you, you were/are a fabulous host. Nothing like kicking you when you are down. I'm a little annoyed at JM right now to be honest.

[Shadeauxe]

I am sorry that you're going through everything and I do believe that you have every right to take a break and deal with everything. On the other hand, I also believe that it takes two active hosts to run this board because Katie can't do everything by herself and the nature of this board has to make it a downer to deal with every day of the week. This board more than most needs the two co-hosts so that people can trade on and off being active.

I hope that everything picks up for you and that you find peace and happiness instead of stress and sadness.

[luvmykids623]

Celena, I'm so sorry you're going through all of this. You are loved and missed. I hope you know that. Take as much time as you need!

[TnPhotoMama81]

I am sorry Celena...I totally understand needing a break from things though. Nothing wrong with that at all.

If you didn't come back to be a cohost I would understand that too...just do what you feel comfortable with <3

CONGRATS on your license thing

[JessP]

Hugs!

[jessjillmama]

I am so sorry for you loss. Try to hang in there and come back when you can. We are all here for you. Big hugs to you.

Congrats on getting you license to do tats!!

[Erin84]

That's a lot I don't have much to say other than I'm sorry, and I'm here for you. I really want things to pick up for you soon <3

[Celena]

Now I'm kicked off as a chat host, awesome... another kick to the gut. Thanks.