Good news, no infection
I was really terrified all night Monday so Tuesday I was able to get in with the gyn. He did some kind of quick culture swab? Also checked my uterus and stated that it felt pretty close to normal. He said since I'm testing negative on the Early Response HPT he's pretty confident that my levels are either 0 or will hit 0 shortly. I was offerred a beta but I kind of agree with him. I can always go back and get one if I really wanted peace of mind, but to be honest it would just be one more thing for me to obsess about. Plus my chart is looking better since the weekend! I seem to be getting "back to normal" a bit. My temps have stayed in the 97 range for a couple of days, which is normal for me pre O.
I start therapy tonight. I'm so nervous about it but I'm hoping it helps me reflect more. I know it's normal to grieve but I don't like how cyclic it seems to be for me. I hate that I feel really great a few days and then really bad the next. I don't like being that unpredictable and I know that life will continue to have "triggers," for my MC. I have to find a good way to cope with it!
I just wanted to update in case anyone was wondering! It's so nice to have GOOD news