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August 6th, 2011, 08:07 PM
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Platinum Supermommy
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Last night hubby and I were watching a movie and at 10:30 it was over I let the dog out to go potty and when he came back in I said "ok lets go to bed" and he grabbed his toys and shot like a rocket to go to bed.
A few seconds later as I am turning the TV and lights off I hear THUMP, THUMP, THUMP. I went to go see what it was thinking maybe he dropped his toy down the steps but something told me to hurry and look. There he was laying life less at the bottom of the steps. I SCREAMED "BAILEY" and my husband came running in. I was screaming "he is not breathing" as I had my hand on his belly trying to feel movement and there was none. Hubby started to do Mouth to Mouth on him and his heart was beating and he made this weird noise and started to breath again.
I ran into my daughters room and grabbed her put her in the car and off we went to ER Vet. They came out and talked to us and offered to send him to OSU medical center 2 hours away and the cost could be 10,000 or more just to see what might be wrong and they did not think he would even make it through the night. They said he needed a MRI but they need to sadate them for than and his heart rate was to low to even try it. They also said they think he had brain trama or spinal cord injury.
So we had to make the choice to have him put down.
I wish I knew why he feel did he slip? have a stoke? He did have elpilespy (sorry I know I can not spell) so maybe he had a seziour while running up the steps and landed wrong on a step and broke his spine or something.
I got him when he was about 6 weeks old from a breeder. He has been my baby, likes to sit or be with no one but me. I could not even go to the bathroom with out my shadow following me in there. At night he would sleep under the covers and in between my legs. He was almost 9 years old and only 5 pounds. This breed of dog should live to be about 16 not 8. My baby boy was taken from me way to early.
I wanted to write you all why I might be a little MIA.... I am taking this really hard I think harder than any of my miscarriages. I just want my Bailey boy back.
Thanks if you read this far. I new it was going to hurt when he died I just didnt know it was going to be this bad. Plus I can not get the images of him laying at the bottom of my steps out of my head. I have not eaten anything in over 24 hours now and just cant. I tried this morning and I chew and chew and just cant swollow. I have never been this bad off before.
Last edited by lindsey2000k; August 7th, 2011 at 06:01 AM.
Reason: Ended up not talking about all I wanted to so changed title.
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August 6th, 2011, 08:25 PM
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My heart breaks for you more than anything  . I have 3 chihuahuas and I know the love of little dogs. My oldest has health issues and I have often wondered how I would deal if she passed away. I cry to even think about it, she is only 5. I am so sorry.
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August 6th, 2011, 08:59 PM
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I'm so incredibly sorry for the loss of your furbaby Is there anything the vets can do to see what was wrong with him? 
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August 6th, 2011, 09:05 PM
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Super Mommy
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Oh no, I am SO sorry. We have a 3 year old collie, and a new puppy, and I could not even imagine losing either one, especially in such a traumatic way. Take as much time as you need, this is a death of a loved one, regardless if it was your furbaby. We are here for you if you need anything. 
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August 6th, 2011, 09:38 PM
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I am so sorry I cant imagine...I would totally be having those images flash through my head too...so awful I hate that he had to go in such a traumatic way. Hugs for you <3
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August 6th, 2011, 11:20 PM
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Oh Lindsey, I am soooo sorry  I have two golden retrievers and they are my babies. they are our family too!! I would be devastated. I don't think people who aren't pet owners even realize how much they mean to us. I am their mommy too!there is nothing i can say that will make you feel better, but just know you are in my thoughts and prayers.
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Oh..can't forget my furbabies, Maggie and Milo.
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August 7th, 2011, 04:50 AM
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Platinum Supermommy
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My heart breaks for you. I'm so sorry the loss keeps getting shoveled in your direction. I'm sorry your beautiful Bailey is gone. I just want to give you a great big hug. 
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August 7th, 2011, 05:34 AM
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Platinum Supermommy
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I am so so sorry
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August 7th, 2011, 05:47 AM
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Lovin life and family
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I am so sorry. I know I have my Dottie girl and she is that way, always with me and just my heart. If I lost her I would be devastated.
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August 7th, 2011, 05:52 AM
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Mega Super Mommy
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Location: MI
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Oh Hun!!! (((HUGS))) I am so incredibly sorry for your loss! Our furbabies are so important to us. I can not imagine the panic and sadness for you last night! We are here for you! I hope things start looking up for you guys soon. How sad
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August 7th, 2011, 06:36 AM
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Mega Super Mommy
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Lindsey, my heart is breaking for you. I totally understand what it is like to lose a pet. They are members of our families and bring a joy and unconditional love that so many humans can't. Your little boy was such a doll and he was lucky to have such a wonderful mommy.
Losing a pet is like losing a part of you. It is especially hard when it's unexpected and way too soon. Take the time you need to grieve. We will all be here when you are feeling better.
I don't know if this will help, but it helped me when I lost my Black Lab, Sophie and my Golden Retriever, Casey. This site allows you to enter your dog's information and a little eulogy. They also have a candlelight ceremony every Monday night. Here is the site: Pet Loss. I'm also going to give you the link to the Rainbow Bridge poem. You may not be ready to read it (it will induce many tears). I still have a hard time reading it, but sometimes when I do, it gives me comfort: Rainbow Bridge Poem
Again, I am so sorry.
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August 7th, 2011, 07:05 AM
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Lindsey my heart is breaking for you. I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet Bailey. Our dogs are a part of our family and when we lose one it is extremely difficult. I cried myself to sleep for 4 weeks when I loss my sweet Golden Retriever, Jessie. I am so sorry for what you have been going through. Sending lot of hugs your way.
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August 7th, 2011, 07:13 AM
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Im so sorry! Id feel terrible if it happened to my cats
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August 7th, 2011, 07:45 AM
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Mega Super Mommy
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Oh no! How awful. I'm so, so sorry. The loss of a pet to me, IS the same as losing a family member.
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August 7th, 2011, 07:53 AM
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Oh No!!! I am in tears reading this. I am so sorry. That must have been so traumatic.
I have lost my furbabies to illness, and to traumatic death, too. (Also, I was pet sitting for a cat that was fine one minute, we were snuggling etc, and the next minute he jumped up on the kitchen table, I heard a thud, and then he was laying on the floor dead. I'll never know if it was a sudden heart failure, a fall with a blow to the spinal cord up high enough to cause sudden death, or a seizure, or what. But I'll never forget the terror and panic I felt at that moment.) It is horrible and heart wrenching both ways, but when it's sudden it just sticks with you in a different way. It sounds like you gave him the gift of going peacefully. I am so very very sorry.
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August 7th, 2011, 08:13 AM
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Platinum Supermommy
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I am so sorry
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August 7th, 2011, 08:28 AM
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Mega Super Mommy
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Location: Ohio
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I am so sorry for your loss. My heart breaks for you and I had to hold back tears to read your post. I know what it's like to be so close to your furbabies and unfortunately I also know the pain that comes with losing one. Furbabies are there a lot of times when no-one else is and losing them is a tragedy.
Again, I'm so sorry!
Last edited by AMiner86; August 7th, 2011 at 08:32 AM.
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August 7th, 2011, 08:29 AM
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POAS Queen
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God, Lindsey, I am SO SORRY. That's awful *sigh* I don't even know what to say. I love you, and I'm sorry <3
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With us on earth for five short days, with us in our hearts forever.
(Thank you Natasha for this beautiful graphic of Andrew, and to the ladies of the Nov 10 PR who help me in carrying on his memory.)
Jan. 2009: Came off years of BCP and started TTC
March 2010: BFP -- finally!
Oct. 22, 2010: Drew is born, but has to stay in the NICU because of cord complications resulting in oxygen deprivation and brain problems =(
Oct. 27, 2010: I held him in my arms while Daddy, Grandma, Great-Uncle and I sang him to sleep =( Hardest thing I've ever done...
June 14, 2011: Drew's baby brother or sister waved hi to us with a BFP!
June 25, 2011: Natural miscarriage... Can we please catch a break here?
Nov. 2011: 100mg Clomid followed by 2mg Estrogen, Ovidrel trigger, and 200mg progesterone suppositories 2x/day 14 days. BFN.
Dec. 2011: 2nd medicated cycle. BFN.
Jan. 2012: Took a month off to breathe...
Feb. 2012: Same regimen of Clomid and other meds, add IUI. 2 eggs and 8.5 million swimmers. BFN.
March 2012: 75 IU Follistim CD 3-11, follie scan CD 8 showed 6 follies likely to mature. Triggered, IUI on CD 14, 4 million swimmers. BFN.
April 2012: 75 IU Follistim CD 3-10. Scan showed 2 mature follies, 2 almost certain to mature, and two not likely but possible. (All 6 evenly and perfectly spaced out between the left and the right.) Triggered, IUI CD 13 with 5 million swimmers. BFN.
May 2012: 75 IU Follistim starting CD 3. Waiting to O. Timed intercourse. Likely 5 follies to mature.
^^ Click graphic for chart ^^
 
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August 7th, 2011, 08:40 AM
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Oh girlie! I'm so sorry. The furry ones we let in so close to our hearts........
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August 7th, 2011, 08:50 AM
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Mega Super Mommy
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Oh no my heart is broken for you I have a 5 year old yorkie and incoudnt imagine how I would feel if that happened!! Big for you!!
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