[cheeky_monkey]

and finally I feel more at peace with myself than I did for these past 28 weeks.

I had been really worried that I would spend the day crying but somehow I managed to 'enjoy' my day. Ok all day long it was on my mind, but mainly I managed to be *me*


In a way it served as closure. Since my body took a long time to realise that our bean was dead by the time everything came to an end the baby had broken down to the point where we could not have been able to claim the remains and bury them. Thus we do not have a place where we can actually go and say this is where my son/daughter lies. In a way I guess it helps.

Wanted to say thank you to all the ladies who have shown their support lately - sorry if I've been a debbi downer. Hopefully now it will be a bit easier to try to move on a bit

[Shadeauxe]

Glad you have a sense of closure. That's really important to be able to move forward.

[cheeky_monkey]

Thanks Courtney! Now I hope that that sense of ebing able to move on will be enhanced tomorrow. Going in for another follie scan and to the ob on Friday

It's not a 'I want to have a baby so that it will feel less about about losing one' - it's a we really,really, really want a baby

[.:Shortcake:.]

Glad you feel closure! Sometimes that helps in ever sense of your life. ((HUGS))

[acchickpea]

[melissalaw]

So glad you have found peace and some closure. I hope your OB appointment goes well on Friday.

[Hopefulpinkangel]

I'm so glad you found some closure!

[pepper73]

I'm glad you are able to find some closure. It's an important part of grief and recovery. Good luck at your appointment! I hope you get some good news!!

[cheeky_monkey]

thanks everyone hoping that tomorrow it will be good news as well. Guess confirmation of friday's appointment now depends on tomorrow's news

[*SamF*]

So happy you got some closure! I'm really excited for you this cycle. I'm convinced that it will be the one for you!

[joanna26]

HUGS, good luck Friday!

[cheeky_monkey]

Originally Posted by *SamF*

So happy you got some closure! I'm really excited for you this cycle. I'm convinced that it will be the one for you!

I hope that ur right Sam! And I hope that I am right as well coz I'm really sure that this cycle was the last one for you and that in less than 9 months ur going to have a beautiful baby!!!

I'm keeping all crossable crossed this month. 2 months ago when ob told me to start Follistim he told me that there was a big chance that the dose would be too low for me but he did not want to risk it. When I told him on Monday that I had 3 follies he said that is fine. I do not know what 'fine' is for him, but I hope that it means that we do have a chance

thanks joanna

[.:Shortcake:.]

Originally Posted by cheeky_monkey

I hope that ur right Sam! And I hope that I am right as well coz I'm really sure that this cycle was the last one for you and that in less than 9 months ur going to have a beautiful baby!!!

I'm keeping all crossable crossed this month. 2 months ago when ob told me to start Follistim he told me that there was a big chance that the dose would be too low for me but he did not want to risk it. When I told him on Monday that I had 3 follies he said that is fine. I do not know what 'fine' is for him, but I hope that it means that we do have a chance

thanks joanna

3 follies sound good to me! I hope this is your cycle hun

[cheeky_monkey]

thanks Katie!

what worries me is that they might not grow enough. on Monday they were 0.8 and the nurse told me that they grow 1,, every day. by Friday they should be 12mm them and that is too small for the ob. He doesn't give the go ahead to trigger unless they are a mimumum of 18mm

[.:Shortcake:.]

They might just surprise you and be the perfect size

[cheeky_monkey]

lol I might cry if they do

[.:Shortcake:.]

Lol