[Cartersmommy08]

I just need to vent ladies,

I know I'm still early in the 2WW and I also reasonably know that after the loss my first "real" cycle can be screwy. However, I never expected my body and mind to play such cruel games with me. I swear I have ever symptom pointing to being pregnant, but BFN after BFN is saying no.......I'm pretty sure that random "faint," was more than likely the actual test line indent. I feel so obsessed this cycle that all I'm doing is checking my chart, other charts and googling symptoms. I have been such a jerk this past week to everyone. I'm so beyond moody it's not even funny. At first I thought this was a good sign but now I feel that I'm just reading into things. I have terrible lower back pain that constantly reminds me of the pain during the loss. I don't know maybe it's just my body adjusting. I guess I need to see the positive, I did ovulate right? My temps are flat in my LP which is so weird for me. I'm having insane hot flashes at the end of the day and migraines. It's causing me worry as apparently I'm not pg. So then of course I'm thinking, great what is wrong with me now!

AF is due to rear her ugly head either tomorrow or Wednesday. I'm actually praying that she just gets here as I feel like she'll be blowing through any minute now.

Thanks for listening, just needed a place to vent

[.:Shortcake:.]

((HUGS)) I am sorry your going through this. First cycles after my losses were always super hard for me. Also wanted to add that my body was giving me symptoms of pregnancy and then I ended up not pregnant. I hope that you get your BFP soon!

[Cartersmommy08]

Thanks, I'm glad that its not just "all in my head." I truly do feel these things. It's so frustrating when I think that today I should be getting excited analyzing if it's gas or baby moving....instead I'm staring at these stupid sticks envisioning lines I miss my babies.......

[melissalaw]

Your chart does look like you definitely ovulated. Sorry your body seems so out of whack. I hope your body gets back to normal soon. Althought I'm still keeping my fingers crossed that AF doesn't show and you do get a BFP. It looks like your 11 DPO right? It might still be a bit early.

[pepper73]

I'm so sorry. It is incredibly frustrating to have already been through so much with a loss and to desperately want to have a rainbow baby. When your body creates symptoms that could easily be interpreted as early pregnancy symptoms, it makes it even harder...especially with BFN's staring back at you. I agree with Melissa though, it's still early and maybe you'll end up with a BFP after all. I see your temp went up a little today, which is good. Either way, we're here for you and we totally understand!

[StaceygirlPa]

I am sorry your are going through this. I know my first cycle after my losses were so hard for me. I hope your body gets back to normal soon.

[Hopefulpinkangel]

This cycle is my cycle after my loss and it's been really hard for me too, I didn't even think I was going to O and I did. I know it's hard! Hoping you get your BFP soon!

[*SamF*]

The cycle right after a loss has always been the hardest for me too. :hug; Hope you are feeling better today.