[WoahMama83]

But not towards anyone here I'm actually extremely happy for all of the ladies here who have recently gotten their bfp's what is eating me alive though are the ladies in another group that I'm a part of and have "known" for years are popping up with them now too and each time its the same story of how it wasn't on purpose and they aren't sure how they feel about it. It has caused tears on several occasions for me over the unfairness of it all and I guess its normal but geez I want it to hurt a little less. I guess thats my rant of the day and I feel a little better for having "told" someone about how I feel.

[Cartersmommy08]

I'm always a cringe jealous of other people BFP's.....If it makes you feel any better I cried at the VMA's when Beyonce revealed her pregnancy Honestly, I was done after that!

[morris126]

I understand how you feel. It does suck. In my case it is a family member that acts like that. Vent anytime you like!

I see that you are from GA. I am too!

[missy123]

It is ok to feel the jealousy. - even for the girls in here. I TTC'ed for 2.5 years with 4 losses and lived in this group. I have even had the pleasure of meeting some of the girls here in real life. As much as I loved and cared for them and was extremely happy they were going on to have their rainbow babies I was still hurting so much inside for myself. It dampened the true excitement I should have felt for them as they experienced loss as I.

((hugs)) I hope you get pregnant with your rainbow soon.

[.:Shortcake:.]

Originally Posted by missy123

It is ok to feel the jealousy. - even for the girls in here. I TTC'ed for 2.5 years with 4 losses and lived in this group. I have even had the pleasure of meeting some of the girls here in real life. As much as I loved and cared for them and was extremely happy they were going on to have their rainbow babies I was still hurting so much inside for myself. It dampened the true excitement I should have felt for them as they experienced loss as I.

((hugs)) I hope you get pregnant with your rainbow soon.

Ditto this! I love all the ladies here. I am truly happy when I see them get their BFP's. But I will admit it, I am jealous of them here and IRL as it's been 3 years for DH and I. It will happen hun. ((HUGS))

[humnck]

I can totally relate! I have many people that are pg on my FB page - they complain about how uncomfortable they are or talk about cravings, etc - it makes me sad and sometimes I avoid FB just because I know how I will feel if I read something like that. My sister is pg with her 2nd and we were so excited to be pg together and then when I lost this one she gave me sympathy (she has had a loss too), but she also complains about issues she is having and while I pray that her baby will be healthy and she will make it full term, I keep thinking to myself, you should feel lucky that you are pg and be happy that things are pretty much going well, except for the hiccup here and there. You are not alone and there are so many people out there in the same boat!

HUGS!!

[missy123]

Originally Posted by .:Shortcake:.

Ditto this! I love all the ladies here. I am truly happy when I see them get their BFP's. But I will admit it, I am jealous of them here and IRL as it's been 3 years for DH and I. It will happen hun. ((HUGS))

And it will happen for you as well my love! I will be celebrating right along with you every step of the way Katie!!

[Leanne78]

What you are feeling is totally normal. I have a friend who is pregnant now and due on my original due date - Jan 2. Makes me a little ill everytime I hear about her pregnancy (it's her fourth). They just told me the other day it was a girl and I had to do my best to smile and say "great". I really am happy for "her", it's just a depressing reminder for "me". And her mother who I am also friends with is always going on and on about it. She knows I've bombed out twice since May and that I'm struggling with this but she's so excited that it's all she talks about. I just try to not be a jerk about it the best I can and smile.

[Moldovandish]

Yes, it's really tough. I still try to avoid pregnant women or women with newborns, as my baby boy would have been a newborn now. I really hope all of us get to experience a long and healthy pregnancy after our losses. This is the hardest thing I've had to deal with in my entire life.

[3Sapphires]

I have been having a lot of jealousy issues too - it is so hard

[.:Shortcake:.]

Originally Posted by missy123

And it will happen for you as well my love! I will be celebrating right along with you every step of the way Katie!!

[*SamF*]

to Missy
And I'm convinced it will be your turn soon! I'm gonna root every girl in here on!

[ashj_1218]

Totally normal feeling. In the 9 months I tried and tried to have a baby and kept losing one after the next, I had several family members who announced their pregnancies. One of whom knocked up his FOURTH baby-mama in 8 years and we were all supposed to be jumping for joy? I swear I almost threw up.

I remember feeling insanely jealous of those who were getting pregnant so easily. Especially the ones who were not trying or those who "were not sure" how to feel about it. It made me want to scream about how unfair life was. And it is unfair.

This room is absolutely different in the sense that you KNOW the ladies in here who get BFP's have been having issues themselves and have "worked" to get where they are going. Naturally, you are happy for them...and sad/angry/envious for yourself. You can't control those thoughts...just how you react to them.

But I agree it is so hard when people announce their pregnancies happily and without worry, when you not only want to be pregnant really badly, but would be terrified for the entire time because of the history of loss. It will happen for you...I hope it does for all the ladies in this room

[kaylakay]

Originally Posted by ashj_1218

Totally normal feeling. In the 9 months I tried and tried to have a baby and kept losing one after the next, I had several family members who announced their pregnancies. One of whom knocked up his FOURTH baby-mama in 8 years and we were all supposed to be jumping for joy? I swear I almost threw up.

I remember feeling insanely jealous of those who were getting pregnant so easily. Especially the ones who were not trying or those who "were not sure" how to feel about it. It made me want to scream about how unfair life was. And it is unfair.

This room is absolutely different in the sense that you KNOW the ladies in here who get BFP's have been having issues themselves and have "worked" to get where they are going. Naturally, you are happy for them...and sad/angry/envious for yourself. You can't control those thoughts...just how you react to them.

But I agree it is so hard when people announce their pregnancies happily and without worry, when you not only want to be pregnant really badly, but would be terrified for the entire time because of the history of loss. It will happen for you...I hope it does for all the ladies in this room

I couldnt of said it better myself.

Keep your head up sweetheart... as hard as that is.

[amandakay29]

My dh and I seem to be able to get pregnant easily. Heck we have had 6 pregnancies in the 4 years we have been married but with that only 2 babies. I absolutely hate that I am not able to jump for joy the moment I see a positive HPT. That I'm not able to shout it to the world that I have a baby growing inside me. I hate that I cringe at every weird feeling, want an ultrasound every freaking day to make sure the heart is still beating, and basically unable to bond with my baby until the day they arrive. It sucks. I'm sorry I'm having a rant myself. But what I'm trying to say is it is perfectly normal to feel that way.