Freaking out (p/g mentioned) (picture added)

Ana*Addey*OliveMommy · #1 September 7th, 2011, 04:54 AM

So I caved and tested this morning. I left the test for awhile (longer than the time) but the line is pretty dark pink. I do not believe it is an evap. I tested yesterday and thought there was a faint line but dismissed it as an evap. It is just one of those bulk amazon tests.

I will be getting a better test today.

I am so freaked out I will start bleeding. I have been worried each pg but since the loss last month wow I don't even want to pee in case it is red. I know I should enjoy this time and be happy that this could very well be our rainbow baby but I can't help but cry every time I think about that fact that I am pg (or well could be pg.) I am scared sh*t less about this. Not sure I could handle another loss this close to the last.

Yes I guess we did not wait our month so I could have set myself up for a loss. But there is nothing that gives any real reason as to wait. I did not bleed any more than any other month with my loss it was no more painful just a few clots but nothing I would feel it was worth waiting to TTC again.

Sorry I know other feel this way I am sure too so it is nothing new but this is my first time going through this. We are NOT telling anyone so I have NO ONE to talk to about this worry freaking out!

junglepeachpie · #2 September 7th, 2011, 05:12 AM

Congratulations!

I think freaking out is pretty normal. It's okay. My goal when I get in that state is to just remember to be gentle with myself. Whatever you are feeling is perfectly fine.

And whatever happens, you can totally handle it!

Ana*Addey*OliveMommy · #3 September 7th, 2011, 05:20 AM

Thank you! I know I will handle whatever happens just scared right now. I just need to make it past that 5w4d mark

melissalaw · #4 September 7th, 2011, 05:44 AM

Congratulations!!! What you are feeling is so normal. I am going through the same thing right now. Just try to enjoy your pregnancy. Sending you lots of sticky dust.

humnck · #5 September 7th, 2011, 05:45 AM

Congrats! Feeling that way is completely normal! I already warned DH that I will be a neurotic mess this time. There is no reason to think that you will have another loss, this is what the doc and everyone else tried to tell me, but it's hard to listen to that.

Sticky dust coming at you

acchickpea · #6 September 7th, 2011, 05:47 AM

I would feel exactly the same... Congrats I do see the faint line... Hope to see the line get equally dark as the test line!

so exciting!

humnck · #7 September 7th, 2011, 05:47 AM

Oh and I didn't wait after my 1st loss either, I had a healthy baby after that one, so there is no reason to think that not waiting would cause another loss!

L-SBB · #8 September 7th, 2011, 05:54 AM

congrats!!!!

if you're anything like me you'll test another 20x in the next couple of weeks too

and don't worry, you can always freak out here!

Ana*Addey*OliveMommy · #9 September 7th, 2011, 06:10 AM

I plan on ordering more cheapie tests and am making DH pick up good tests today! Next week I will get a digi but I am waiting until later to test with that.

Thanks for letting me freak out here. I never really thought that a BFP would be this hard! I always thought AF showing was hard. This is so much worse than the witch showing right now. All the worries going through my mind.

After a few more tests and making it past 5 weeks 4 days think I will breath a little better.

pepper73 · #10 September 7th, 2011, 06:17 AM

I definitely see that line! Congratulations!!!

I totally understand your anxiety. It's totally normal! Please keep us posted and show us the test progression!

Ana*Addey*OliveMommy · #11 September 7th, 2011, 06:20 AM

Thank you! I will test for awhile. So I will show you all as I go. I will keep this post updated as to not post too many posts in here about it.

Cait&AngelAbove · #12 September 7th, 2011, 06:31 AM

Congratulations!

morris126 · #13 September 7th, 2011, 06:39 AM

Congratulations!! Your feelings are completely normal and understandable. I can't wait to see pics when you take a new test!!

outnumberedX3 · #14 September 7th, 2011, 07:07 AM

Congrats!!! I hope that you have a wonderful pregnancy!!

*SamF* · #15 September 7th, 2011, 07:31 AM

Yay!! Congrats!!!

And I'm still freaking out too, so you have company.

missy123 · #16 September 7th, 2011, 08:09 AM

(((hugs))) First of all congratulations! 2nd - It is normal to freak out with PAL. I still have freak out moments. Feel free to join us in PAL.

Hopefulpinkangel · #17 September 7th, 2011, 11:45 AM

Congrats!!! I would feel the same way too!

KaiyaRae'sMomma · #18 September 7th, 2011, 04:28 PM

Congrats! Our innocence of pregnancy and/or bringing home a baby is tainted after a loss. That's why we stick together and support each other during our freak out stages!! You'll be in my prayers!