The U.S.S. Pity Party

Leanne78 · #1 September 22nd, 2011, 06:32 AM

Is getting ready to sail... I can feel AF coming on again and I was so convinced we had caught the egg this month. This is really starting to get depressing. How do you keep pushing on to the next cycle? My enthusiasm for the process is starting to really nose dive. I feel like my life has been on hold since January. I have a hard time focussing on anything else while TTC and all the little 2 week waiting periods are killer. I'd take a break, but I'm not getting any younger and I really don't want a gap any bigger than 2 years between kids. I guess I will just greet AF with a glass of wine and make a toast to a possible July baby. Sorry for the whining.

Blue_fire · #2 September 22nd, 2011, 06:35 AM

Oh girlie! I know, I too feel like my life has been on hold since jan. Yuck, I was hoping I was the only one that felt this way.... Have a great toast, and jump right back into it after AF.

LilHerndon · #3 September 22nd, 2011, 12:54 PM

I know exactly how you feel. I'm in the same boat this month, and I really felt like we did everything possible to get a sticky baby. The clomid even made me o like 3 eggs according to my doctor, but yet I can already feel af on her way.

My mind has been overly consumed, and when I try to focus on school it's nearly impossible. I really hope you suddenly get your bfp this month though. Good luck and baby dust!

pepper73 · #4 September 22nd, 2011, 04:09 PM

I am so sorry! I know exactly how you feel. I'm going through the same thing myself. It does get harder and harder, doesn't it? I really hope that you get your BFP soon.

doremi · #5 September 22nd, 2011, 07:07 PM

I'm sorry Leanne! It is so hard not to get obsessive. We tried for our Jan. angel for 8 months, and have basically been TTC since Oct. 2010. I definitely don't find it fun anymore... what keeps me going is just how much joy I find in my son, and how badly I want to give him a sibling. I hope BOTH of us get our BFP's soon.

roziecakes · #6 September 22nd, 2011, 07:28 PM

I don't think you're whining. I would probably feel the same way. Although I've not actively TTC yet, I have a good feeling that if it doesn't work for a while, I probably would get disappointed too... I think your feelings are natural and normal and real. Best of luck to you hon, I really hope you get your BFP soon.

acchickpea · #7 September 23rd, 2011, 07:08 AM

I feel the same way... It's draining but look on the upside of things...
You can get through it... we are here for you too!

boysarebest · #8 September 23rd, 2011, 07:24 AM

I know its hard and 2 years age difference may be ideal to you but please know that sometimes things may take a little longer but it will happen. My boys are 4 years apart and they still play together, fight with each other, laugh and wrestle all day long. And my 5 year old can actually help out with the baby so it is actually really nice. Keep your head up!