[(Calebs_Momma)]

I just gotta vent for a minute to ladies I know will understand.

We've been ttc a year now, we had our m/c which was hard as hell and then last month we had a chemical pg. It is taking a huge gigantic toll on me. It just gets harder and harder. I am pretty sure I have endo b/c I have all the signs and its just getting to be really hard on me just physically emotionally, everything.

I went to lunch with a friend the other day who had been trying get pregnant a little over a month and was sad and complaining that it was taking "soo long" since her first had been an oops. She KNOWS we have been TTC a year and about the m/c and it just seemed insensitive to me. The other night I was so down, just depressed thinking about how I should have my baby here by now if we got pg in the beginning.. and then the next morning the friend txts me that shes pregnant. I am so happy for her, of course, but its like just another thing. All my friends that started ttc after me are already pregnant or have their babies. I feel just so frustrated and sad and hopeless. I feel like everyone tries to make me feel better nobody really gets the feeling of wanting a baby so bad and not getting it. I know I should be happy and feel blessed for the one that I have and I am and I do but that doesnt take away the want, the NEED feeling for another one and it just hurts

[humnck]

I am ss you are feeling that way, it's totally normal! I feel the same way! It's so hard to watch others have their babies and just have that feeling come boiling to the surface!

HUGS!! I hope you feel better and you will get your rainbow baby soon!!!!

[.:Shortcake:.]

((HUGS)) I could have written that myself. DH and I have been trying 3+ years and it does take a toll on you physically and emotionally. We are here for you hun.

[Leanne78]

(((Hugs))) Totally understand where you are coming from! Had a miscarriage in May followed by a chemical in August and I swear everyone around me is getting pregnant with no problem. It's been really hard and I'm only just getting to the point where I can be happy for people when they tell me they are expecting. This will be my 8th cycle trying and I've about had it. I'm sorry your friend wasn't more sensitive to how you are feeling. People just don't understand until they've had a loss themselves. And like you, I am very greatful for my first. But at the same time it makes it hard knowing what I lost. I think of her everytime I reflect on my losses and I thank my lucky stars she made it.

[*SamF*]

I also totally understand where you are coming from. Its hard hearing people complain about how long its taking to get pregnant when it takes some of us a lot longer. I also get that little prick when I hear people announce their pregnancies super early. I miss the pregnancy bliss that nothing can go wrong.

[roziecakes]

I completely understand. I spent the last 9 years of my marriage being told by doctor after doctor that I would never have a baby, and was so excited when I conceived in July... only to have a loss. And now trying again is scary and I'm frustrated. I have some friends who are pregnant right now, and I'm so happy for them, but I get sad because I feel like my body is broken, and I want to have a baby SO BAD. I know how that feels. Good luck to you and hugs!!