[mummy4]

Hi ladies

I have been lurking for a while on this board, i would like to say that i think you ladies are soooo supportive with amazing strength and determination which has made me feel comfortable posting here.

A little bit bout me, im Kerry anne (39), i have 4 living children and an amazing granddaughter lol

My first loss was in 1996, my beautiful dd was born sleeping at full term, that was the biggest and most hardest part of my life, the grief was so overwhelming it nearly destroyed me, now i have learned to walk with my grief and not let it take over my life.

My second loss was in april of this year, i had a chemical, i will say and i hope nobody takes this the wrong way but i didnt feel as grief stricken as i did with my first loss but i still grieved iykwim.

Today i took a test and i got the faintest of second pink line come up, needless to say i am worried this does not form into a healthy pregnancy, i have never had any problems at the start of my pregnancies always at the end but after my loss in april im worried now.

Thank you for letting me put my feeling down i am finding it really hard to stay positive but i know what will be will be

Thanks again ladies and i wish you all very sticky baby dust to you all

[Ana*Addey*OliveMommy]

Sorry for your loss! Glad you are joining! I had a chemical last month a month after my m/c at 5 weeks 4 days. I got my positive this last Saturday but they have been getting darker the only thing saving me from worrying about a chemical. It is hard to wait to test again but that advice was given to me (not that I took it) I have tested everyday to make sure line getting darker and still there. Last month with my chemical the day AF was due I had a negative test.

I do agree that with the chemical I was not as emotional as with the m/c. I think there was something in me that had a feeling last month that it was not time. Now I really finally starting to believe that this is a sticky bean.

Sending you tons of darker line and sticky dust! Hope this is your rainbow baby!! KUP!!

[.:Shortcake:.]

Hello and welcome! I am so very sorry for your losses. The ladies here are amazing. Your also more than welcome to join us at Pregnancy & Motherhood After Loss the ladies are amazing there too and might help with the anxiety.

[*SamF*]

Welcome! I'm sorry for your losses!
Congrats on the BFP!! Tons of sticky dust your way!

[humnck]

I'm ss for your loss! I hope that this is your rainbow baby! I can totally understand the worry that comes with a positive test after a loss, hang in there. Sticky dust coming at you, along with some HUGS!!

[joanna26]

I'm so sorry for your losses sweetie! Welcome to the board Sending tons of sticky dust your way!

[pepper73]

Hi and welcome! I'm so sorry for your losses!! I'm sending you tons of sticky dust for this one and wish you a healthy & happy 9 months!

[acchickpea]

The ladies are great here. I am sorry for your losses as well... It seems that you have found that middle of coping. It is scary to not know the outcome but you just have to dive in and go with the flow... Hope that you get a darker line! We're here for you.....

[junie22]

I'm sorry for your losses, but I'm glad you decided to come out of lurking and share your story. I'm sending you tons of sticky dust for your newest BFP.

[mummy4]

Wow thank you so much for the warm welcome, it brought a tear to my eye but in a good way.

I am not going to test again for another few days by then i should have a clearer line if this one is going to stick

Good luck to everyone and again thank you