[Lindz253]

Some may find it weird that I would want to bring this up and that is fine if you don't want to re-live your hardest moment but I find talking about things helps me, esp because I know my friends just don't get it.

My hardest moment was a little over 2 weeks after my loss (my 16 week loss, not my loss last week). I went out to have dinner and drinks with some girls for my friends b-day. There were 5 girls so it was a pretty close setting. I didn't realize my good friend's friend was coming who had just had a baby boy a month ago. She is my friend too through my good friend but we arn't super close or anything. I didn't know she was coming let alone bringing her son to dinner and of course I ended up having to sit right next to her. Listening to all my friends gush over him and her talking about how wonderful it is to have a son (since they have an older girl) it literally took all my strength not to get up from the table and leave. And to put a fake smile on and tell myself not to cry that I would make everyone feel uncomfortable. My throat was burning and I was fighting tears so I just kept ordering drinks and tried to change the conversation. As soon as my friends dropped me off at home I literally started bawling as soon as I stepped foot in the door and just ran downstairs to my DH and just cried. I obviously had breakdowns before that but it was just so real seeing her hold him and it just hurt so bad. For those that don't know I lost a son so that is why it made it extra painful.

And it just sucks that my friends hadn't gone through that and no one realized that it would have hurt me to see that. I don't blame them or anything, its not their fault - but that is the reason I love it here so much. I finally feel Im around people who just get it.

[ninja_mommy]

That's a tough one. I would say the first time I spotted. I was at my friends house for a coffee play date. I went to the bathroom, wiped and saw that spot It was horrible feeling of being scared, confused and angry. I had that warm feeling wash over me and that knot in my throat. I tried to convince myself that it happens to a lot of people who go on to have a normal pregnancy, but I never spotted with DD, so I knew what was up.
Thankfully most of the girls had left and it was my one good friend (who also had m/c at 12 weeks years earlier.) It was so hard to tell her I had spotting because I knew what was coming.
The other really hard part was to call my OB (this all happened over the weekend) and tell them what was happening. I tried so hard not to cry over the phone, but ended up bawling at the end of the 20 second call
I agree too that talking about it for me helps. Though as I write this those exact feelings of feeling warm and getting that knot in my throat come back

[BeckyBozeman]

Well so far the hardest moment with this loss has been the other night. I was lying in bed with my laptop, DF next to me and I was trying to distract myself by looking at wedding stuff. I was looking at dresses when he looked over and saw what I was browsing. He said "didn't you already pick out a dress?" I looked at him and I have no idea how I said it but I said "Yeah, but it was a maternity dress." He just looked at me for a second and then started crying. And then of course I started... I felt awful because I felt like I'd made him feel bad and we both just layed there and cried for a bit...

It was pretty heartbreaking...

[3Sapphires]

The hardest for us was telling our oldest son, who knew there was going to be a baby, but it took a long time for him to remember that the baby went to live in Heaven with Jesus - I told him probably every for 2 weeks straight until he finally stopped asking me about it.

[JulieMc]

Holding my sister's new baby at the hospital just as my first round of bleeding had ended...

[LittleMomma09]

Being around my best friend gets me down. We had found out the same day that we were both pregnant. She was only 2weeks ahead of me. I had to explain to her after everything happened that it was going to take sometime to be comfortable around her. She is someone I see a few times a week. Thankfully she understood and things are back to being okay. Sometimes it's still hard to here her talk about her pregnancy though.

[cheeky_monkey]

I really do not know which was the hardest for me. Guess it was while I was carrying the baby and went for the first bereavement session. All I was interested in was knowing what was going to happen to my baby after I miscarry it. I ended up crying for more than two hours straight in front of this person and it took me more than 15 minutes just to ask her what was going to happen to my baby and if the baby had hurt while dying. We ended up all crying; DH, the midwife and myself crying. I cried so much that day that got out of there with my eyes all puffy and voice less. The session was a bit over 2.5 hours longand it was one of the hardest.

[joanna26]

Originally Posted by Ami N

The hardest for us was telling our oldest son, who knew there was going to be a baby, but it took a long time for him to remember that the baby went to live in Heaven with Jesus - I told him probably every for 2 weeks straight until he finally stopped asking me about it.

Oh Ami that broke my heart! We went through that with Jack when our dog died and it was hard. I can't even imagine how awful that must have been for you

Past the actual m/c, my hardest moment by far was sitting in my OB's waiting room for my first infertility consultation. The waiting room was filled with young expecting couples clearly there for their first u/s and so excited. I just kept flashing back to the last time I was there, so excited for my first u/s, and that horrible moment in the u/s room when I realized there was no h/b. I had to sit there for 1.5 hours reliving that moment because they were backed up that day.

[Jennifer8080]

When my friend called me to complain about being pregnant. I pretty much flipped out.