December 6th, 2011, 08:17 AM
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Join Date: Feb 2009
Location: San Diego, CA
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I clicked your link to "follow my journey here" under your siggie to see how things were coming on the baby-making front. I saw that your RE appointment is Dec. 22 -- I think last I knew you were finally getting referred but didn't have the appointment yet. I also saw that it said that maybe it will lift your spirits and give you some renewed hope for Christmas. I wanted to tell you that this was my experience exactly.
I'd been bleeding for 5 weeks, we lost Drew because he didn't grow right while he was inside me, then miscarried ~7 months later. I had gone to a gyno for another issue as well. I just felt like my insides were, to be honest, rotting. I associated words like barren, sewer, and wasteland with my reproductive organs (and even just the pleasure ones!). Then I saw the RE and we did a workup and started treatment right away, like I mentioned, and it was like this fog lifted.
Before the RE appointment, I was happy with everything in my life except reproduction. I had actually finally made it to a point where I was feeling fulfilled, even! But when I thought about "down there," I would grimace and be so hateful to myself. That changed immediately after seeing my RE. It was like someone turned off the rain. I'm hopeful, I want to have sex just for fun and intimacy... People I know have even been telling me that I LOOK happier lately! And it's true.
So I just wanted to say to keep your head up. No matter what happens, you're on your way to answers and that rainbow baby we've all been wanting for you. I'm so glad you're on to this next step in the journey. You are so beautiful and so strong, and it's finally almost your time. I can't wait to be here when you announce your next pregnancy -- we all know that this is the one you'll hold in your arms once all is said and done. I love you so much, Katie.
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With us on earth for five short days, with us in our hearts forever.
(Thank you Natasha for this beautiful graphic of Andrew, and to the ladies of the Nov 10 PR who help me in carrying on his memory.)
Jan. 2009: Came off years of BCP and started TTC
March 2010: BFP -- finally!
Oct. 22, 2010: Drew is born, but has to stay in the NICU because of cord complications resulting in oxygen deprivation and brain problems =(
Oct. 27, 2010: I held him in my arms while Daddy, Grandma, Great-Uncle and I sang him to sleep =( Hardest thing I've ever done...
June 14, 2011: Drew's baby brother or sister waved hi to us with a BFP!
June 25, 2011: Natural miscarriage... Can we please catch a break here?
Nov. 2011: 100mg Clomid followed by 2mg Estrogen, Ovidrel trigger, and 200mg progesterone suppositories 2x/day 14 days. BFN.
Dec. 2011: 2nd medicated cycle. BFN.
Jan. 2012: Took a month off to breathe...
Feb. 2012: Same regimen of Clomid and other meds, add IUI. 2 eggs and 8.5 million swimmers. BFN.
March 2012: 75 IU Follistim CD 3-11, follie scan CD 8 showed 6 follies likely to mature. Triggered, IUI on CD 14, 4 million swimmers. BFN.
April 2012: 75 IU Follistim CD 3-10. Scan showed 2 mature follies, 2 almost certain to mature, and two not likely but possible. (All 6 evenly and perfectly spaced out between the left and the right.) Triggered, IUI CD 13 with 5 million swimmers. BFN.
May 2012: 75 IU Follistim starting CD 3. Waiting to O. Timed intercourse. Likely 5 follies to mature.
^^ Click graphic for chart ^^
 
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