1st cycle PP = BFP!

oicyur · #1 January 6th, 2012, 12:33 PM

I had a miscarriage November 21st, and just didn't prevent and started DTD when the blood was gone. Ever since the mc my body has been whaco! I've basically felt pregnant since my miscarriage and was getting frustrated that I wasn't returning to normal yet, and of course my cycle was all over the place after the mc! I bled for about 4 days in mid-December, but it was only 2 & 1/2 weeks after the mc and it was brown which puzzled me, but I didn't think much about it because it was my first AF post-mc. So, anyways, I'm planning on going on a juice fast next week and thought I should rule out a pg first and took a test this morning. I didn't expect for a positive to come up and to come up so fast and so dark!

I knew it was a possibility, yes, but I was bracing myself for another few months of TTC before seeing this again! Since we weren't actively trying and my body is still whacko I have NO clue when I ovulated! I have no clue when the mc hormones stopped and the pg hormones started! lol Looking back now I can see the bleeding in mid-December as possible implantation bleeding, so I'm somewhere between 5 and 7 weeks along!

I am happy, but I feel distant from the idea, as if it's not real and I'll lose the baby soon. I still feel wounded from the mc in Nov. I'm sure that will pass soon, but as of right now I can't honestly say I'm excited because I think I'm to cautious right now. Can this be real?

lol

p.s. I thought about the possibilty of it being a BFP from leftover hormones, but then I remembered that I had blood work done the week of the mc and the hospital told me that "it's definitely negative", so I think it's safe to say this isn't leftovers.