Ugh, emotinally regressing

ninja_mommy · #1 January 10th, 2012, 10:51 AM

I know the road after m/c has it's ups and downs. I'm not sure if it's because everyone who I was pregnant with is finding out the gender of their baby or saying that DH/SO felt the baby move. I am dreading going in for my appt on the 19th to check out if I have possible cysts or what else is going on. I just don't want to be "a walking statistic."
2 days ago we hit our 3 month mark of loss. It feels just like yesterday but also seems that it was so long ago. If that makes sense at all. I could really use some extra hugs today

Belita · #2 January 10th, 2012, 10:57 AM

I'm having a rough day too. I was teaching a small group of kids and they decided today was the day to talk about me having a baby. I have a friend who is almost out of her first trimester and she was only two weeks ahead of me. I completely understand.

L-SBB · #3 January 10th, 2012, 11:23 AM

i do truly understand this b/c i've avoided checking into PAL even recently b/c a lot of the ladies we were in the May DDC with are passing key dates, finding out gender...all the exciting stuff that makes you remember everything you've lost. You may regress a bit again when they turn into a PR and the babies are born....to this day I cringe when I see someone from the May '09 PR (this was my DDC with my first loss) with pictures of their LOs...even when you should be "past" something the wishing it could have been different will sneak up on you sometimes.

.:Shortcake:. · #4 January 10th, 2012, 11:34 AM

I to this day have my good & bad days. On those bad days it doesn't matter what anyone else says I just feel like poo and have a black cloud over my head. I truly hope that you get your sticky BFP soon. Know we are here for you with lots and lots of

Nia1978 · #5 January 10th, 2012, 11:41 AM

Big hugs to you~

markswife · #6 January 10th, 2012, 12:06 PM

Big hugs coming your way. It's so hard to see other people experiencing what you are missing out on. I hope you have a good appointment and get your sticky BFP soon.

StacieRN · #7 January 10th, 2012, 12:22 PM

I'm sorry you're having a rough time.

sending hugs and prayers your way.

junie22 · #8 January 10th, 2012, 12:57 PM

, Nena, my emotional rock through my loss.

Better days are in your future, including a happy, healthy, beautiful baby in your arms.

I

you.

Babybun · #9 January 10th, 2012, 12:57 PM

I'm sorry that you are having a bad day....I hope tomorrows a bad day

seri0uslyc0nfused · #10 January 10th, 2012, 01:28 PM

Its very hard, I understand! Your time is coming...I can feel it

martilynne · #11 January 10th, 2012, 01:29 PM

It sucks that we all have to understand, but we do

I hope your days start getting easier soon.

MauMama · #12 January 10th, 2012, 02:28 PM

Hugs, hugs, hugs.

Some days it feels like 4 steps back, one step forward.

Grief is such a strange dance.

I hope tomorrow is a better one.

LoverlyJules · #13 January 10th, 2012, 02:40 PM

Sorry it's a bad day. I totally understand. My former EDD is in a couple of weeks so I've been down too.

ninja_mommy · #14 January 10th, 2012, 02:49 PM

Now to top it off I have to decide whether to go to a funeral on Friday and be away from DH during my most fertile time or stay with him and miss it. And if I stay my 17 week preggo SIL (with twins) wants to come visit. Ugh, ****** if I do, ****** if I don't.

LindsayGriff · #15 January 10th, 2012, 05:43 PM

Hugs!!!

BenzBella · #16 January 11th, 2012, 09:20 AM

I'm so sorry this has been so rough for you. I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you this cycle. T&Ps for a sticky one no matter what you decide to do.

"Every battle we face is only the size of our strength. With each battle determines what is to become our future."

I think you are one of the strongest women I've met. Big Hugs