[LittleMomma09]

Well ladies TTC is taking it's tole on me. I think I am over thinking things. Each month since the lost I have been getting faint lines around 9DPO on whatever brand of test I take only to have them go back to stark white before AF shows. I don't know if something is going on or what. I just know it is heartbreaking. I get my hopes up to be let down. I know that is a reason to not test so early but the only way to deal with the evil TWW is to pee on something. Next cycle maybe being away during O will help me not do this because I wont know when I O. I am still going to TTC. I would love to still do OPKs this coming cycle but I don't know how I would hide the sticks in the trash.

Also I would love to add yall on facebook. I have no one from here on there. Just PM me and I'll send you a link.

[doremi]

TTC is stressful, and an emotional roller coaster. I'm SO tired of feeling like my life is divided into two week increments If you don't have a medical reason for needing to use the OPK's (I have to use them since I'm on prometrium), then maybe a break from the pee sticks would help. Good luck!

[Cait&AngelAbove]

TTC can be so hard. Do what it takes to protect you and what is best for you.

[Belita]

I agree with Cait, do what you need to do to help you get through this.

[HopeTea]

I'm not sure if this would help you or not, but maybe you could try having a specific goal for during the TWW. Something that would really occupy your thoughts and your time. It could be something to do with a hobby you enjoy, a new hobby you've wanted to start, or just some kind of change in your life you'd like to make. I wish I would've come up with that idea sooner, because it's really helped me out a lot lately! I started doing some experiments, making my own mixes for my face and hair since they've been problem areas lately, and I've also started researching how to cut my own hair since I haven't had a trim in a year! They are really simple things, and nothing major, but it's been a good distraction. Especially if you only need to get through an extra five days or so, I'm sure you could come up with something that might help keep your mind off TTC!

I understand how hard it is to think of anything else, and to fight that urge to poas, but gradually you can pull away and take some of the pressure off yourself. You don't want to get to the point where you're so stressed you get totally burnt out and need a break, right?

Best of luck to you! I don't have facebook, but if I did I would add you.

[twoboys]

I know its horribly hard and the suckiest rollercoaster ever.. I dont think there are really any words to help make you feel better, you just have to keep trying and trying, and hopefully you will get your bfp I am sorry you are dealing with this, I am sorry we are all dealing with this

[LittleMomma09]

Thank you ladies to you all! I wish the TWW wasn't so hard, but each month it gets harder. I think next cycle if it isn't it this cycle, then next I am just going to go with the flow. Jack, I think I am going to try and get into reading again. It keeps my mind going. The past month I haven't been able to find anything that I have wanted to read but today alone I have read a book and am starting on another.


Also I took away my OPKs on my chart and it moved my O day? Then I just added in the 2days that it was very dark and it keep it to what it had moved to. What do you ladies think, should I move it back or does it look right now? It was on CD15 and it's now on CD17.

[Mrs_lynn.c]

I have a face book if you would like to be friends on there you can look for me my name is Peggy Miller Clifton my profile picture is a cancer ribbon. Im so sorry your having a hard time,its so hard to see that bfn every month.Ive been trying for a year now this time and its starting to take a toll on me mentally so i kinda know how you feel.I hope you get something to take your mind off of the tww.Good luck hun ill be praying for you and all the ladies on here.

[LittleMomma09]

I sent you a request Robyn and Peggy.

Also thanks Peggy. Praying we will all have success after all the stress from TTCAL. I am thinking if in 2more cycles I don't see some results, I'm going to have to call my OB. I know I can go to him because he may be my regular OB but he is an infertility specialist.

[Mrs_lynn.c]

My ob told me if I don't get my bfp in the next three month she is going to do a test to make sure my tube is open, she had me go get blood drawn for hormone levels. I go for an ultrasound next week to check to make sure I don't have asher syndrome from having to many d&c's.It make me a nervous wreck to have all these test done I want to know the answers but I'm afraid of what the answers are. I'm praying for all of us I hope you get your bfp soon.

[Lav]

I'm sorry we have to go through this, Christy. Jack's idea is great, I hope it will work for you. I want to poas every day myself, it's so hard not to!

[.:Shortcake:.]

TTCAL can take a toll on your life. I have been TTCAL since December 2008 and I am just finally at a point of peace with it all. Sometimes taking time away from the stressful testing and cycle tracking is what you need to get your mind back to where it needs to be. Remember that stressing and worrying aren't going to help (I know easier said than done) and always remember we are here for you!

[LittleMomma09]

Thank you all! I have friends and family who tell me I am letting everything get to me. That I am trying to hard. Or if I see a line, I am seeing it because I want it so badly. I really don't know how I could get through this all without you kind ladies.

[martilynne]

Besides the whole sex thing, TTC sucks!