I was watching some youtube videos about pregnant bellies moving and newborns and so on, so on.... and it just made me sob and cry (i usually never cry...or when i do then i cry secretly) well i just started to think if im still able to carry a pregnancy to full term and started thinking about my small angels and i just needed to let it out. No matter how excited i am to get pregnant again..im still scared a lot.....
My BF was surprised seeing me like this so we just ended up talking and i just sobbed sobbed....i dont like crying infront of him and im actually surprised too...usually these videos wont affect me that much

Sorry, i just needed to share...