going crazy

mama2cuties · #1 March 6th, 2007, 05:22 AM

So AF should have came yesterday. I have been cramping on and off since Sunday. I had a lot of pg symptoms earlier in the month that went away all except the sore BBS. I took a test and it was BFN. With the last one I took a test the day after AF was to show and it was Neg and a week later it was Pos. I want to much to be PG again and it makes me so mad that everyone I work with keeps coming up PG and not trying and here I am doing everything I can to get PG and nothing. Yesterday I even had an US pic thrown in my face and all I could do was cry. That is all I seem to do here lately is cry. MY DH tells me not to worry about it but what else can you do when you think about everything and then think well I would have had one in 2 months from now but that was taken from me and all I can do is cry more. I think I am so stressed that I even am tempted to tell DH that I want to stop trying for a couple of months. I do not know what to do anymore. I just want to be PG again. Sorry I just had to vent a little. Thank you all for listening to this crazy woman ranting.

greenchild · #2 March 6th, 2007, 06:12 AM

Sending you lots of

I understand, it is SO frustrating!!!! I've come to dread seeing all these happy preggo women! My first would have been due this month.
Lots of luck, it isn't over until AF shows! Here's lots of

Sabina · #3 March 6th, 2007, 11:01 AM

It is hard when everyone around you is pg but hang in there. Just think you will be there again soon. And if you want to take some time off from TTC then go ahead. What does your DH say?

#4 March 6th, 2007, 12:52 PM

Hang in there hun.

mama2cuties · #5 March 6th, 2007, 01:42 PM

he does not want to stop trying and he keeps blaming himself for us not being PG yet. I keep telling him it is not his fault but it is just so hard. While I was at work today someone else told me they were and had to bring the test with them to show everyone. Oh I hate it I just wanted to scream that I did not care.

baby4me? · #6 March 6th, 2007, 03:28 PM

I am soo sorry you are having a rough time. It does seem like everyone is pregnant after you loose a pregnancy. My brother's GF just had a baby last week and it is hard to see how happy everyone is. I am glad for them, but I am soo sad for the loss of our babies. My first angels due date would be in April 19 and I just keep thinking that I should be getting ready to bring a baby home next month. Anyway, you are not alone.

I hope you feel better soon.

chen75 · #7 March 6th, 2007, 05:31 PM

Don't stress yourself out too much about it. And don't let something that happened in the "past" effect your future health, and especially your future chances of getting pregnant again!! I know, because I was once in your shoes. I had a m/c with our very 1st pregnancy. We were trying for a very long time, and when we finally got it, it was taken away from us very quickly.

At first I didn't know how to react to it. Being that I had only felt happy for 1 whole week with the known pregnancy. Couple days after the m/c, that was when I just became very depressed. And just had the feeling of hopelessness, and just felt that I'm not going to ever have children, and thought that maybe i'll never ever have any children. Trust me, I was depressed!!

Then one day, I had a moment to myself and thought....I can't let 1 m/c ruin my other chances of getting pregnant again. I knew if I continued to be depressed, then my body will not do what it's suppose to do. I wanted to so bad try right away and didn't want to delay my ovulation.

Everyone is different, but I personally found that the only way I felt happy again and was able to forget about the m/c, was to try right away. So once my bleeding stopped -which was only a week..we waited a couple more days after the bleeding and tried again.

I'm now on my 8week post my m/c and I still haven't had my AF yet, and is probably pregnant. I feel pregnant!!

I have the same types of feelings that I had when I first gotten pregnant. So crossing my fingers and praying for a miracle!

So keep your head up high, and just think about trying again. NO matter what, you can't change what has happened in the past. No point in depressing yourself over it if getting pregnant again is your main priority right now. But....if you feel that you are still very deeply sad still and feel that you can not bear to go through another m/c at this point...then maybe you are emotionally not ready to try again, and need more time to heal.

Whatever you decide...I wish you all the best. And just know that intime you will get better.