Oh goodness, I am so very sorry for the loss of your precious lil' kitten, that is an awful way to lose a loving pet

I lost both of my dogs about 2 yrs ago.....my neighbors children came into my yard and left the gate open allowing them to get out......long story short, they didn't return the happy lil poochies they were when they left.....what you are going through is horrible, all I can say is that time will help you to heal

(((hugs)))