[tamaranwes]

I'm not doing this anymore. CD 20 of a 28 day cycle and no O. DH and I cant get along anymore and I'm just flat out becoming mean. When I get af I'm gonna go ahead and start bc again. I cant deal with wanting a baby, fighting with DH, and stressing about my nursing classes. I HAVE TO simplify life right now and hope this does it. I feel bad about it, but I'm at the point where I just dont care about anything and its scary.
I am not going to purposely get pregnant and go thru all those hormones esp when I feel alone already. Anyway I still am staying on here with you all if you dont mind. it'll be a year or so before I ttc again but its always in my heart. I hate that so many of us are going thru a hard time right now. I can remember still being crazy about DH just a few months ago and I'm just numb now. ttc shouldnt cause divorces, it should be a happy time. One or the other has to go right now and I'd rather not be alone anymore than I already am. So I'm just gonna stalk you all!

hun i am so sorry your going through all this..... wish i could make it better, but if your that stressed out i would say its time for a break for your own sanity and your marriage! hang in there it will get better....

aw Tamara i'm so sorry. i really hope that this break will do you some good and you can get everything back on track. i wish you lots of luck with your marriage and for when you decide to ttc again. i so wish there was something i could do or say to make you feel better. please check in with us often and let us know how your doing. ((((HUGS))))

[tparum]

I am sorry hun.

[greenchild]

I am so sorry and I hope you are feeling better soon! Don't feel bad about stalking us, it's going to be a long while before we can save the $$ to get IVF but I'm still here

[baby4me?]

Tamara,

I am so sorry you are going through soo much. TTC is definitely stressful... it really sucks actually! Take care of yourself. I hope things start looking up very soon!