well, after a few days of letting the news sit in i have made some not so hasty decisions.... we are suppose to do dh's sa today since its been 72 hours and its the best day since he is going to 12 hour shifts next week. .....

my hsg is setup for the 17th of this month... im taking my next to the last cycle of clomid.. i have to pick that up after i drop off the sa sample....

i have decided that if we do not get pregnant this cycle, then i am gonna put my energies elsewhere like into my marriage and my ds, and i have lost 3 pounds so far since wed... yay for me!!!!! im gonna start exercising more regulary and things like that so after this month.... i'm breaking no clomid no opks no nothing if it happens it will happen and if not well then it wasnt ,ment to be... i'm less than a month away from when my angel baby would have turned 1... i can't believe its been so long....i never thought it would tkae this long but maybe i have been focusing too much on my trying to get pregnant... so after this cycle im gonna move on, ill still be around... im gonna still post ive missed you guys to much these past few days!!!! thanks for all the loving and supporfting comments they mean so very much to me.....

im still very very upset that my body is playing tricks on me like this but there is nothing more i can do about it but track the symptoms so i dont get so excited next time......

[greenchild]

it sounds like you are feeling a bit better! taking a break sounds like a good plan. Let us know how the S/A and the HSG come out! Glad to hear you'll still be around with us, we missed you!

[reddick2084]

What is best for you. I haven't been on here for awhile because 3 weeks ago when I went to the doctor he said he wanted me to get myself in better shape before I can try again or before he can help us. So so far I lost 17 lbs from dieting and excercise. We decided that we are going to try after our wedding next year if possible but if it happens it happens.

congrats on losing 3 lbs! that's so great! i've really missed you around here and i hope everything goes well with the s/a and hsg. i am so pulling for you that this happens for you. good luck Starry!