[greenchild]

Well, last night DH's best friend and his wife came over for supper, and they told us, yep you guessed it, they're pg with their 1st. Don't get me wrong, I'm thrilled for them, but I had to put on a happy face for the next few hours when all I wanted to do is cry. I'm having a really hard time today not crying! DH just emailed me, he's taking 1/2 day today, I'm not sure why, but I think he feels pretty crappy too. And I feel bad too, bc they're scared knowing what we went thru . But they don't have a history, so they *should* be okay.

Kind of an update to my last post, the How weird is this post, AF should be here tomorrow. But things are still feeling like ????? On Friday I had sharp pangs in my uterus, which I ocasionally get with AF (but only WITH AF, not before, so that's another weird thing) so if AF DOES show this week, that means now I will have absolutely no indications to go by before AF of being pg if that ever happens!

I don't know if I'm feeling over-emotional bc of yesterday's news, or bc AF is on her way, or what but man all I want to do is crawl in bed and cry. Bleh. Got to go back to work.

[Shaustin]

I'm so sorry. I know EXACTLY how you feel, its crazy how it affects you when people close to you pop up pregnant. Unfortunately, there is nothing we can do to change it. I just wanted to say I'm sorry because I know how bad it stings.

I know how you feel hun, I was just told a few days ago that my sister is pg with number 1. I wouldnt think anything of it but she was on BCP for 9 yrs and wasnt even off it 2 mos before getting pg. On top it she is getting married Jun 16 and moving. So I feel like someone said well wedding and moving isnt enough lets bless her too. So I do know how you feel hun. Cry I did let it out it will make you feel a lot better hun.

[prush02]

Gosh.. I feel your pain. My sister is preggo with her 3rd and my sis-in-law with her 1st... I feel like both sides are against me.... and I have lost one son after 5 weeks after birth and one miscarriage. So I am soooo jealous of her happiness... We have had a few arguments that stem from her wanting to feel sorry for me and me just being MAD. let it out girl... We feel you.

[greenchild]

Turns out DH DID come home bc he was feeling really bad about last night too. Poor guy!!!! I think he's just heartbroken about this. They were just beginning to consider having kids when we got pg last summer. He said, we've got to find some new friends . . . not that we'll avoid his best friend/wife or anything but out of all our friends we're now the last couple without kids, and so many of the other couples have just moved on without us bc I guess it's just easier to do things with the friends that have kids??? His best friend has been avoiding us for the last few weeks bc of their news, I don't think they wanted to upset us.

[Shaustin]

Again, I feel your pain. Same thing going on with me and DH. Its like we are in that awful in between stage, where there are the friends who have gone on to have healthy kids, and the last few are just now getting pregnant, and DH and I were pregnant and seem to be having problems getting pregnant again, so it just leaves us feeling empty and sad and all those other icky emotions that come with it. I try to be the best friend I can be to all these people, but its so hard, and they often leave us out because we don't have kids, or hide things from us because they think it will hurt us, you know what I'm saying!

Anyhow, not stealing your thread here, but I totally understand!

[greenchild]

Again, I feel your pain. Same thing going on with me and DH. Its like we are in that awful in between stage, where there are the friends who have gone on to have healthy kids, and the last few are just now getting pregnant, and DH and I were pregnant and seem to be having problems getting pregnant again, so it just leaves us feeling empty and sad and all those other icky emotions that come with it. I try to be the best friend I can be to all these people, but its so hard, and they often leave us out because we don't have kids, or hide things from us because they think it will hurt us, you know what I'm saying!

Anyhow, not stealing your thread here, but I totally understand![/b]

I know, it doesn't seem fair, we try really hard to keep in touch and we don't stay out late or party so it's not like we're living the "no kids" lifestyle, so why all of a sudden, friends get pg, and disappear from our lives? What did we do wrong????? DH is so upset, he feels like he's going to lose his best friend over this and he didn't do anything to deserve it!