[proudmomof2]

I had my 4 m/c at the end of March at 10 weeks. I was due in October. I have about 8 friends and family that sre due between Sept and Oct. I just recieved a shower invite for one of them. I knew it was coming, and I thought I would be o.k. with it, but instead I start balling my eyes out. When will it get easier? We have started trying again, and I am even on clomid. I hope that works, because I would atleast like to have my BFP before all these baby showers or I think I will really have a break down! Well thanks for leeting me whine!

[zzz]

For me, it hasn't gotten easier. I was actually more ok with it in the beginning than I am now... crazy as that sounds. I was semi ok right after my m/c's happenned, and now it is kind of painful to look at a pregnant woman, especially when I'm out and about and I see a teenager that has to go grocery shopping with her mom because she can't even figure out how to do it herself. It makes me angry that someone like this is given a baby, but I can't be blessed with one.

I don't think your feelings about not wanting to go to the baby shower are irrational, everyone has them from time to time. I hope you get your bfp soon!

Lisa

[the scotts]

have faith i think thid is your month!don't stress just take it easy and you'll get your bfp real soon for the mean time here is some goodluck!

[proudmomof2]

have faith i think thid is your month!don't stress just take it easy and you'll get your bfp real soon for the mean time here is some goodluck![/b]

Thank you! I hope you are right! It is easier said then done! I find myself stressing so much! I keep hearing well you have two kids, maybe you should stop trying, and since you have had 4 m/c maybe it's not in the card for you. I really thing I will hurt someone if I hear something stupid again! And these things have been said by family! My family isn't making this any easier on me.

[lynie07]

aww hun its the same way l feel and its been nearly a year since we lost
our angel,and people say the same it gets easier ,but nearly a year later l feel
more lost than ever but we have to stay positive and pray that soon we will beable
to hold a baby in our arms again don't give up

[serenitynow1979]

You're right, it never really gets easier. Eveyone around you can get distance and forget, but we carried those babies for as long as we were blessed to carry them and when they left to become angels a piece of us went with them. I will alway mourn the loss of our angel last July. There was one thing that has given me some comfort and you can take it for what you want, but I read this book call Baby Catcher by Peggy Vincent. It was a book about how she became a midwife and all of the births that she had seen over the years. Anyway, it one chapter she was talking about her miscarriage and how she was up late one night crying over her loss when her older son came into the room. He sat down to comfort his mother and began to tell her about what he called "Spirit Babies". His theory was that all women have a circle of babies hovering around them and those are all of the babies that that woman could have in her lifetime. Each month a new baby gets in line and if the woman gets pregnant then that is the baby that is born. If a woman experiences a miscarriage then that baby is first in line each month until it is born. I loved the thought of "Spirit Babies" and how wonderful that would be if it were true. Anyway, I hope that gives you a little comfort like it gave me. Hang in there. We will get to have our babies I just know it.

[tparum]

it never gets easier and yeah ur excited for these other women that are haveing there baby showers but it still feels like it should be urs. but i know it is easier said then done u gonna take it easy so it will be a little easier on u to concieve again i know easier said then done but the soonner u do the easier it will be on u. and u are in my thoughts and prayers.

[proudmomof2]

Thank you all so much. I am really dreeding going to the shower, but it is something I have to do. I just hope that I don't cry there!

[divababy]

I know where you're coming from...My first m/c was due in September and I actually found out I was pg the same weekend as one of my best friends got her bfp. We were so excited to be pg together. But then I lost mine. But since we are good friends, I've gone to two of her ultrasounds with her. The first one was REALLY tough and I ended up fighting back tears the whole time, but the second one was a bit easier for some reason. I don't know how I'll react when she has her baby, but I just think there will always be a bit of sadness mixed into my happiness when I meet and get to hold her little baby.

Now that i'm in the midst of m/c #2, my family has said dumb things to me like I should consider that maybe I can't have 3-4 kids like I'd hoped and that I should just accept that. It is so frustrating--why do people feel like they have to add another rain cloud to an already crappy situation?

I bet you'll be surprised at how well you make it through the shower. It will be tough, but I'm betting it won't be as bad as you're fearing. And, hopefully you'll have your BFP already and then you'll have that to feel good about.

Good luck this month!

[lynie07]

Thank you all so much. I am really dreeding going to the shower, but it is something I have to do. I just hope that I don't cry there![/b]

l felt the same way when l had to go and see my sister inlaws little girl for the first time,
when l arrived l was so nervous about going in, and saying to myself l have to be strong,
but the minute it was time to go to the babies room my heart was beating so fast and when l first
look at her the tears just couldn't stop it was just to hard,but then my sister inlaw just held me and had a little
cry too,then she pick her up and handed her to me and it was the best thing,it really help a little,but every time l see her l just think of our little one,so if ya got to cry you cry

[proudmomof2]

Thank you all so much! It is great to have a site like this, that you can express your feelings to people that have been there too! People that I talk to that have never been through it don't really understand how I feel. Good luck to all you ladys, I hope that you get your BFP very soon!