The loss of my son has made me bitter...

jennandbaby · #1 June 23rd, 2007, 06:30 AM

I find myself feeling happy for my loss friends when they get a positive hpt but kinda mad when someone that hasn't suffered a loss gets a positive hpt. Man, I feel so bitter right now. My doctor says this is completely normal (and would worry about me if I didn't have these feelings). Thanks for listening. Just needed to vent a bit. I hope we ALL +hpt THIS MONTH!!!

MrsPoe · #2 June 23rd, 2007, 10:05 AM

Its ok. I know what you mean. I have mixed feelings too. I have a niece that supposedly had an abortion when she was 17 weeks preggo. Then she got pregnant again later and she miscarried (well her story is far too graphic for me to write), I had to inform her that it is a miscarriage until 20 weeks. She tried to tell me she was 20+ weeks, but she has no clue. She kept calling it a miscarriage. So anyways then she just got married last month. She thought they got pregnant on their honeymoon, but she just started late because of stress. So after her telling me that she wants to have a baby, I hung up the phone and I just started getting mad. Mad thinking how little value she has for life itself. The way she told the story of the baby she lost is horrible, very cold. Now I think here she will get a bfp before I do and she won't even have any complications...blah blah. I guess I am bitter too!!

I think I am more jealous of those that have never had a loss because they can be naive about the whole pregnancy. I hope that makes sense, although I would never wish a loss on anyone! Losing a child is the hardest thing a parent ever has to go through.

BabyBird · #3 June 23rd, 2007, 10:14 AM

I am totally in the bitter club! I threw a fit this morning actually when my DH mentioned that his brother and SIL were going to try for their third...HELLO she can't even teach her 5 year old how to count to 5, she JUST got potty trained, and STILL breastfeeds! Oh and she pretty much ignores the 10 year old because he isn't a baby anymore. Just because she knows we are TTC, she thinks she need another one. I think she realized that her 5 year old isn't a baby anymore but she still treats her like one! uuuuuggghhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!