[matl]

Wheww.... it is almost over. Just got my hcg count from yesterday and it is at 400. Doc expects it to be zero soon and has given me the go ahead for work next week. I just have to go to his office and get the paperwork done my office and I can go back to work. I called my job and said I would be in on Thurs. That gives me time to mentally recover somewhat, recover a bit physically, and get ready (clothes, hair.... etc) for work. I mean, I look like a wreck.

I am still bleeding a bit, had really bad cramping today and am exhausted, but doc thinks it should pass soon as I am nowhere near anemic (by the grace of God). Sometimes I don't think that many male doctors understand how traumatic and exhausting the blood loss is. Of course this is aside from the psychological stress and sense of enormous loss the mc represents.

As for DH, he is relieved that everything has passed and that I am in good health. He does feel badly that we lost the baby and wishes that we hadn't. I give him credit because he has actually said that he could never feel the physical sense of loss that I feel since he did not go through the physical pain and the blood loss. I think he was amazed at the sheer amounts of blood that I passed.

In a few weeks we will start bd practice.

Thanks for reading.

[tparum]

yayy to bd. practice. and im still so sry ur going threw this.

[MissCarley]

Sorry your having to go through all of this. Have fun with your bd practice!