[MrsRodgers]

I don't know what it is lately, DH and I had a M/C in December (2 weeks before our wedding!) and we've been TTC since January when the doctor cleared us with no luck. Now I'm in the 2WW and for some reason I keep thinking about our baby girl that we lost in December. I actually started crying about it last night and I havent' done that in awhile. In fact as I was reading some of the other posts I started thinking about it and getting teary eyed (which isn't good cause I'm at work). Maybe its because my due date would have been on DH's birthday on August 5th. I don't know its just really getting to me this time. I'm assuming I'm not alone in this feeling but any support would be really appreciated.

[Em2528]

I don't know what it is lately, DH and I had a M/C in December (2 weeks before our wedding!) and we've been TTC since January when the doctor cleared us with no luck. Now I'm in the 2WW and for some reason I keep thinking about our baby girl that we lost in December. I actually started crying about it last night and I havent' done that in awhile. In fact as I was reading some of the other posts I started thinking about it and getting teary eyed (which isn't good cause I'm at work). Maybe its because my due date would have been on DH's birthday on August 5th. I don't know its just really getting to me this time. I'm assuming I'm not alone in this feeling but any support would be really appreciated.[/b]

I know how you are feeling, we got pg with our first at the end of April (this year) and lost our baby in the beginning of may...to this day i think about it everyday, ill never forget my lost baby and ill always miss him/her. We are currently ttc again and it just feels like its taking forever, nothing will ever replace the baby we lost, but i feel like the only thing that will ease this pain and emptyness im feeling is being pg again with a healthy baby, that way ill have something to look forward to and i wont be so concentrated on our painful loss. I hope you find peace soon and that we both get our bfp's real soon...hang in there, your not alone!

[MrsRodgers]

THANK YOU SOOOOO MUCH! DH is understanding but he admits that he doesn't understand the depth of the loss that I feel because I already had bonded with our little girl. (I almost wish the doctor never told me it was a girl but too late now.) But its nice to know I'm not alone. I have a lot of friends who have had M/C and they are so nonchalant about them because they have kids--either before or after---but I can't be that way, not yet. Once I get that BFP and have a healthy baby it will put some closure on our loss but right now its like an open wound.

I appreciate the hugs and right back at ya!

[*Bobbie*]

My loss was in March at 14 weeks. Last night I was up till 6am crying. It just hits you sometimes and I think it's totally normal. Some days are good and others it feels like the sun will never shine again...KWIM?

I am glad you posted because it is nice to know others really do go through the same things I do. I still have my u/s pic on the visor in my car. I just don't ever want the memory of my angel to dull with time.

Extra hugs and I hope you get preggo soon. I think that will be the only way I feel whole again too

[MrsRodgers]

I totally understand that feeling---some days I am ok and think that it all happened for a reason and for the best and then there are days like today when I am so sad about losing her. Especially since we have been trying and waiting and now I've taken two HPTS and they have both been but I still feel nauseated and tired and no signs of AF so I'm going for a blood test tomorrow. I'm not really optimistic but at least I will have my answer. But its when it gets to this point I think about my angel baby most. Lots of hugs and lots of good luck and baby dust for you!

[fairy9800]

I know exactly how you feel. I have a friend that's pg and due only a couple of weeks after my baby would have been born so it's really hard to watch her go through everything I should be doing right now. I really don't know what advise to give you other then it's ok to still cry and think about it. That little girl will always be a part of you. Time will make it a little easier though. Just mourn for as long as you need.

[lynie07]

aww l know exactly how you are feeling,we lost our baby boy
just over a yr ago(14ww) and l still have days that l just sit there crying
the loss of our little angel even just trying to type now is hard without
tears,

[MrsRodgers]

Thank you ladies so much. I actually sat down with DH last night and told him that I've been feeling this way lately and I just started bawling. He just held me and tried to make me feel better. Not a lot that anyone can say cause you have to get through these times and let yourself feel sad. Its just nice to know that there are others out there who totally understand the way something like this will stay with you forever and sometimes make you feel like it just happened.