[brandiruss]

I've been needing to prepare myself for the inevitable, but I haven't been able to post here until today....at 12 1/2 weeks I found out (after a seemingly normal pregnancy) that I am pregnant with NONVIABLE CONJOINED twins....they share one HEAD and one HEART but have two completely formed (and amazingly beautiful little baby bodies) The doctors wanted me to do a D&C immediately but I just couldn't bear the thought of them "cutting up" my babies who are still very much alive... I opted for them to induce labor (which will be happening in about a week and a half)...my little miracles will be born stillborn and my DH and I will name them and give them a proper burial...


I have PCOS and have NEVER had a natural period....doctors said wait 3 cycles to try again...but um, yeah, I could be waiting FOREVER...I talked to my doctor and she said for me to wait two months and then she would put me back on Clomid so we could try again...Clomid worked the first time for me, so I'm hoping for a similar outcome this time as well (of course with a better ending)


I am so sorry for all of you that have suffered a loss (or losses) This was my first pregnancy and I was so excited and FILLED WITH JOY! I don't know what my life is going to be like when I'm not pregnant anymore.....

Any advice for someone who's never had to go through this before???

[dee68]

I can not tell you how sorry I am that you are going through such a heartbreaking ordeal.
Although my situation was different than yours, I know how terrible it is. I lost my little one at just about 11 weeks.....also my first pregnancy.
We often ask ourselves, how will we get through it..thinking we never will..and amazingly we do. It takes time...all of us grieve differently ..so Never ever question your own grieving process. In time, although the heartache doesn't ever leave us completely, we do heal day by day....and our angels will watch over us forever.
When you are ready, I really encourage you to go to the Pregnancy loss board. it has a wonderful group of women for support and advice. It got me ...and still gets me through my rough times. I think you will find it most helpful.

please feel free to pm me if you need to talk.

my thoughts are with you & your family.
Dee

[fairy9800]

I can not even express how sorry I am for your loss. I have been reading your post for awhile and have been so amazed at how strong of a person you are. All I can tell you is that while time will make things easier, you always mourn your babies and that's ok. I'm glad you are being given the oppertunity to give them a proper goodbye. I think that should help you a lot. If you ever need someone to talk to I would be happy to listen. My name is Nikki by the way.

I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers as you go through this rough time.

[Leigha24]

I've been following your story and I'm so incredibly sorry. I pray that everything gets btter for you, that each day it gets easier. You're in my thoughts and prayers...

[brandiruss]

Thank you ladies so very much for your kind words.....

[greenchild]

Just wanted to asay again how sorry I am for what you are going thru!!! I was absolutely devastated from our first loss and then never imagined I'd be going thru a 2nd one only a few months later.
The ladies here are great and I hope the clomid give you the miracle you deserve!!!

[Mum2three]

I'm so sorry to hear about you loss. We are all here to help you through it. you aren't alone, we all have went through it. I wish u and ur hubby the best of luck. I will keep u guys in my thoughts and prayers.

[tparum]

im so sry for ur loss. there is nothing i can really say but i will keep u in my prayers and thoughts. and if i could climb threw this computer i would give ya a

[MrsPoe]

I am so sorry that you have to go through this. The only advice I can offer you is to allow yourself to feel, you will go through many feelings. Take the couple of months to grieve and to heal both emotionally and physically. As for you life after, it will never be the same, but IT WILL GET EASIER! And we are all here for you now and when you are ready to start ttc again. Sending lots of love your way!

[*Bobbie*]

I am sorry you are going through this. If you need anything just ask.

Sending T&P's.....

[*Mrs.T*]

Im so sorry you are having to go through this. We are all here to help you through. If you need to vent or just ask questions about whats going on we are always here to talk. Good luck with trying again, I hope you get your BFP the first time, and have a H&H 9+ months.

You can PM me anytime. or my Yahoo s/n is K_tallent01 as well as my msn

[matl]

I am so sorry that you are going through this. My thoughts are with you. Let us know how you are doing. We will always listen.

Hugs