[Mum2three]

July 30, 2006 was the most hardest days that i ever went through, as a mother as a wife.. Today is the day that We lost our Little Bundle of Joy, Lexi Marie. I have been thinking about it all day, and I have realized that i have 2 earth angels here with me and 2 heavenly angels, watching out for me. Its super hard for me today, cause today marks the 1 year anniversary of my Baby Girl..My heart still aches everyday thats shes not here.


I LOVE YOU LEXI MARIE!

[tparum]

im so sry my little thomas would be 5 today. you are in my thoughts and prayers today.

[Mum2three]

Tosha i send you tons of it is so heartbreaking! all that i have been listening to is Avril lavigine song SLIPPED AWAY..its a good song. it brings me to tears. but i need this as i never cry what so ever! can i ask you a ? is it easier as the years go by? this is the 1 year mark and this is making me so emotional!!

[tparum]

for me it does get a little easier but everyone is diffrent. it took me many yrs. to just get this way. and it took alot of talking to ppl. took alot of crying, it took alot of me getting mad at myself. and me being mad at myself is a whole other story. ill never forget to this day them telling me that i lost clayton eairlier in pregnancy omg i felt like i was dyieing inside. i couldnt even be around any other kids w/out starting to bawl. but to answer ur ? hun everyone is diffrent but if you ever i mean ever need to talk please pm me i dont mind at all.

and how far along was u w/ur sweet angels?

[greenchild]

hope the days get better!

[Mum2three]

for me it does get a little easier but everyone is diffrent. it took me many yrs. to just get this way. and it took alot of talking to ppl. took alot of crying, it took alot of me getting mad at myself. and me being mad at myself is a whole other story. ill never forget to this day them telling me that i lost clayton eairlier in pregnancy omg i felt like i was dyeing inside. i couldn't even be around any other kids w/out starting to bawl. but to answer ur ? hun everyone is different but if you ever i mean ever need to talk please pm me i dont mind at all.and how far along was u w/ur sweet angels?[/b]

im a pretty strong cookie, but when it comes to death its becomes harder on me. mostly when its my children. im trying to stay focused, so that me and dh can have another baby. i get mad at myself all the time, i think its my fault. i could of done something. but deep down inside, i know there was nothing. im so sorry to hear about you little man Clayton. im sure hes watching out for you. i know what u mean about dying inside, i feel like that still to this day. i have realized that everyone is different and doing things are different, but sometimes others have advice for others, u sound like a strong woman! i may just pm you one of these days. u and i sound alike.lol..with my daughter i was 29 weeks and with my son i was 18 1/2 weeks along Thanks Tosha for everything! keep your chin up and u will have another baby!

hope the days get better![/b]

Thanks Greenchild! I just read your post and i had to post! i hope that you get ur baby soon!

[*Bobbie*]

I am sure Lexi was looking down on you yesterday. I am sure she loves her momma very much and you will one day be able to hold her again.

Did you do anything special for your sweet angel?

[tparum]

im a pretty strong cookie, but when it comes to death its becomes harder on me. mostly when its my children. im trying to stay focused, so that me and dh can have another baby. i get mad at myself all the time, i think its my fault. i could of done something. but deep down inside, i know there was nothing. im so sorry to hear about you little man Clayton. im sure hes watching out for you. i know what u mean about dying inside, i feel like that still to this day. i have realized that everyone is different and doing things are different, but sometimes others have advice for others, u sound like a strong woman! i may just pm you one of these days. u and i sound alike.lol..with my daughter i was 29 weeks and with my son i was 18 1/2 weeks along Thanks Tosha for everything! keep your chin up and u will have another baby![/b]

o everything was fine w/clayton they just told me eairlier on that i was loseing him and my #s were going lower. and sweetie i Know this is easier said then done and we need to all realize this its not our fault that things like this happen to us. and we do sound alike lol. and that offer is out on the tbl. if u everneed to talk im here and just a pm away. and u do the same keep ur chin up to u as well will have u another earthangel.