[karag]

I am in a rotten mood today. I can't stop thinking that I should still be pregnant. That I should be spending all my birthday money on new maternity clothes!

I am miserable today. I haven't cried but I feel like I am going crazy just waiting to see when bleeding will FINALLY stop once and for all.. which I think it might have almost stopped...and then wait to find out when the next bleed will start.

I kinda feel like I am going a little crazy over all this.




I cant keep my nose out of the boards and I keep seeing all the people trying and waiting to test and I'm ready to be there.
The wait is killing me.. Maybe this is a test to see how bad I really want this.

[greenchild]

It'll be 1 yr tomorrow for our 1st loss and being pg is all I can think about. I went shopping with my MIL today and what did I look at? cribs and maternity clothes.

[Mum2three]

im sorry to hear that your in a rotten mood! it sucks but just keep thinking about the next time. it will get better with time. i wish u and your dh the best of luck! turn to your other kids for support, thats what i did and i felt better at teh end of the day. mabey go for a ice cream cone and have fun.

[karag]

I think the fact that we moved into this new home last week for the sole purpose of the baby is making it worse.. we have boxes of Tyler's old stuff in there and it's just all marked Baby Room. It's tough looking at all that.

I am going to paint one of the bathrooms tonite so that I have a project.



I just want to start trying again.. Move forward!

I picked out two designs I like for my angel wings tattoo.. Now I need to pick one and then make my appointment.
OH and decide where I want it.
I am not sure where I would want to put it but I am thinking the back of my neck, my wrist or across my outer side of my foot.
I already have the cross on my lower back.


I am just in a funk today! UGH!

[proudmommato4]

First I wanted to tell you how very sorry I am for you. I suffered my fourth loss in March. I was a little over 10 weeks. We had seen and heard the heartbeat. My doctor told me that I only had a 10% chance of m/c since the heartbeat was so strong. 180BPM! Just remember it's ok to cry. There are days when I still feel like crying. I have about five friends and family members due around the same time that I was. I think it's unfair that I lost my precious angel, and they are still pregnant! (Not that I want to see them M/C) You know what I mean? It will get easier. I got a tattoo of a mended angel on the back of my neck for all my precious angels that I lost. We started trying right away and I feel that this has helped. If you are ever having a bad day and need someone to talk to please pm. I have found that it helps to speak to peolple that have been through it. I will keep you in my prayers.