[*Bobbie*]

Hi girls... I know I haven't posted much about my TTC journey. I just would rather keep things silly sometimes. I guess that's how I deal with stress.

But I am really nervous about tomorrow. I am scheduled for a sonohystrogram. It's a saline ultrasound where they put saline in the uterus via the cervix and do some kind of an ultrasound. I am sooo worried about it hurting and as silly as it sounds I am worried about being in stirrups and feeling vunerable. I just wish it was over already. I am cramping just thinking about it. UGH!

Yesterday I had a Dr apt. to talk about where I stand in this TTC journey. My Dr. ordered more blood tests and I HATE needles. One is a prolactin test and the other is progestrone.

Last week I had an apt with a hemotologist at the cancer center at our local hospital. I guess some blood work my OB/GYN ordered a couple months back came back abnormal and he refered me to the specialist. Talk about stress! Turns out my blood was fine. We are still waiting for two tests to come back though. One was for a blood clotting disorder that causes m/c. I asked for that one to be run and luckily he agreed to run that extra test for me. I am a bit worried about that one, but we will know soon what the results are. If that is what caused my m/c at least we will know. If not, the cause of my m/c will always be a mystery.

My Dr. thinks I may not be Oing. They also think I have Polyps and that is why I am having the u/s tomorrow. Both are not good things when TTC.

In three weeks I have to go back to my OB/GYN to go over all test results (U/S...Hemotologist...Progestrone...Prolatin) I am just so tired of doctors, apt's, and needles. I feel like screaming. I don't know how women with known infertility deal with it all. I am to the point where I just want to give up, but know I can't. I will always wish for another baby now that I know just how much I wanted the one I lost. We were trying, but not charting, I figured if it happened, it happened. When it did happen four years later I didn't realize how much I wanted another child. I feel like I am now on a mission to have a baby. I also feel like I am too old and it will take forever.

Thanks for letting me vent.

I will update tomorrow. My apt. is at 1:00....

Bobbie

[~*Kixs*~]

I will say a little prayer for you.

My SIL had the water sono done about a month ago and said it was uncomfterable but did not hurt. To be on the safe side take a couple tyenol before you go in tomorrow.

You are so brave! Tomorrow is just one day out of the rest of your life and by Thursday you will be doing fine. And when you are holding a BFP HPT in your hands you will be so glad that you went though all thoses test b/c then you will be able to give your baby the best start in life as possible.



Let us know hoe everything goes.

[tparum]

AWWWW good luck hun it will be so worth it to get answers. please keep us updated.

[reddick2084]

I' m sorry to hear about your stressful situation. Hopefully all goes well an they find you some answers. And about needles.... I hate them too. But goodluck tomorrow.

[MrsRodgers]

Give us an update when you can. And I know it is stressful and overwhelming but think about how it will all be worth it when you have that wonderful snuggly baby in your arms!!!

[BabyBird]

I had an HSG this month and it is really over quickly. When the dye goes in it is very intense cramping but only lasts a few seconds until it all flows out into your tubes. It is a real time xray machine so the Dr will see it immediately and it will be over. Good luck and it won't be as bad as you think!

[greenchild]

I wish I could take away the stress for you!!! But that will come when you get back the results of your blood tests and have the sonohysterogram done. Right now I'm still hoping that I could be pg this cycle and be able to cancel my HSG, but on the other hand I am super excited to get the HSG done just to see if/how things have progressed in there.
I'll be thinking of you today!!! Good luck!!!!!!!

[proudmommato4]

Good luck today. Try to take some asprin before you leave. Thats what I was told by my doctor before mine. he said it would help with the cramping. Which only lasts a short time. I will keep you in my prayers.

[dee68]

Bobbie,

You'll be in my thoughts today.... I'd be just as nervous as you are ! But I am sure everything will be fine, you'll get the answers you need and that will be GOOD !
Don't stress yourself out too much...and know that we are all here for you !!



Dee

[*Bobbie*]

Okay...that HURT!!!! OMG

I am not a happy person at the moment. I think it hurt more for me than normal by the look on my doctors face. He almost ended it early because I was in so much pain. I heard him asking the tech after she left the room in the hallway if I was okay? That was sweet of him

I usually have a really high tolerance for pain. This was not fun.... I even took two Aleve an hour and a half before I left.

But it's over.

Thanks for all the kind words...they really helped me relax while I was being prepped for this stupid test. I kept thinking of you all and it calmed my nerves a little. I will have the results after the other Dr. reviews the pictures. Probably at the end of the week.

Thanks again girls...

[tparum]

o hun sry to hear about the pain but im so glad its over and done with. and i hate that u have to wait a wk before hearing anything that part sucks big time.

[spicymustard]

I'm sorry that the procedure hurt so much but I really hope you find the answers soon. If you aren't O'ing isn't there a type of medication that people use to help them do that?

Good luck with the rest of your tests! I'm still keeping my fingers crossed for you and hope to hear some good news soon!

[*Bobbie*]

Thanks I am pretty sure they would have me start Clomid if I am not Oing. I think I am though. Fertility Friend had detected ovulation the past two cycles.... so we will see what the Progestrone levels reveal.

I can't belive you are 16 weeks already! Time flies I see it says Team Yelllow are you not going to find out the sex of the baby?

[dee68]

Bobbie,

I am so sorry that it hurt so much !! I ma really hoping you get the answers you need & you dont have to go through that again!!

[Leigha24]

I've had an HSG test done back in Feb, worst pain ever. No one told me to take anything for pain ahead of time, either. You talk about incapacitated.

Praying all goes well for you..

[spicymustard]

Thanks I am pretty sure they would have me start Clomid if I am not Oing. I think I am though. Fertility Friend had detected ovulation the past two cycles.... so we will see what the Progestrone levels reveal.

I can't belive you are 16 weeks already! Time flies I see it says Team Yelllow are you not going to find out the sex of the baby?[/b]

Time has gone surprisingly fast. It has been a bit nerve wracking considering what happened last time and the spotting I had at the beginning of this one. I ended up renting a doppler. Best thing I could have done. We will be finding out the sex around 20, 21 weeks. The blinkie I have is one for those of us waiting for our u/s.

[Mum2three]

oh bobbie! im so sorry to hear that really hurt! but hey look at it as a good thing, u will find out all the answers to your questions now! i sen u many healing vibes i hope u feel better soon! your a trooper and a strong woman at that!

[*Bobbie*]

Time has gone surprisingly fast. It has been a bit nerve wracking considering what happened last time and the spotting I had at the beginning of this one. I ended up renting a doppler. Best thing I could have done. We will be finding out the sex around 20, 21 weeks. The blinkie I have is one for those of us waiting for our u/s. [/b]

I agree with you about the Doppler We had a doppler last time and for the time my baby was with me...that darn thing was 100% worth every penny! It is so reassuring to be able to check on the baby. If I get preggo again I think I am going to give in and just buy a doppler. Some people think it's a bad thing to have because they would freak out if they couldn't find it at first. I never freaked out when it was hard to find. Some how I just KNEW when it was gone on Feb 14 that it wasn't coming back Mothers intuition I guess. Keep us updated when you have the big U/S. My guess is boy I have a 50/50 chance of being right...right?

oh bobbie! im so sorry to hear that really hurt! but hey look at it as a good thing, u will find out all the answers to your questions now! i sen u many healing vibes i hope u feel better soon! your a trooper and a strong woman at that![/b]

Thanks I know it's a good thing and I am glad my Dr. ordered the test....but I NEVER want to do that again. I am still bleeding and cramping. I feel like I did after the D&C. I bleed more if I over do it at work. We were moving tables and fixtures tonight and guess what... bleeding increased. I hate retail GRRRR I need a vacation!