[fairy9800]

I just found out that another friend, whom I also babysit for, is pregnant. I am SOOO happy for her but can't seem to get over the disappointed feeling either. When I showed DH the text that she sent me and then said I was going to lay in bed and pout, he told me that I'm trying too hard and want it too much. How do you stop wanting it so much? I don't think thats possible. I have been trying for a year and a half and in that time lost a baby. How am I supposed to make that need go away? I don't know, maybe I should just give up trying for a while. I don't think I can take much more dissapointment.

Sorry for the whiny sob story. I just needed to get that out! Thanks for listening!!!!

[greenchild]

Go ahead and pout and cry all you want! This last spring, when I found out our good friends were pg with their 1st, part of me was thrilled for them but the rest of me was so angry and upset. DH took the news harder than I did. He didn't even want to talk to them after that but he did it anyway, bc they're such good friends. But, sadly a week after they told us she had a m/c, which I would not wish on anybody! Now, everyday, I keep expecting them to tell us they're pg again . . .and I still don't want to hear it.