[Crys]

ok so most of you probably don't remember me because it has been a while since I have last been on here. Short story is...Last July I found out I was pg. My levels never really doubled there was something wrong from the beginning. Well Aug. I had a m/c. I've been off and on again the road to ttc. I have been pg since then but those m/c don't count as something wrong in my and the drs head because they were caused from my ex husband. Fast forward.>The new dr I'm seeing now did some test and was trying to figure out what is going on with my body. I get those test back Tuesday morning....and I'm scared because I am ready to ttc again and I have a new SO and we are wanting this... I guess I'm just scared. I just. I dont know..They were talking that at this appt that they were going to schedule laprascopic test but that all depends on the test results from this....I guess since its getting closer its really starting to bother me. I dont know. lol

I do know that I am sick of not seeing two lines that it kills me. I cannot wait until I get the green light to go..because its torture...To not even be able to ttc..to be stuck..with af and she does suck here lately ha.

Sorry about this rant..I just I don't know. I never really thought anything was too terribly wrong with me.....Now i'm just ranting like a crazy woman.. More a scared woman who wants to hold a baby of her own so bad it hurts to the bone.

Sorry for the rambling girls..

Love

Crys

[Mum2three]

Crys, im sorry to hear that ur going through this...
but look it as its a positive thing. im sure u would like to know if there is something wrong, then having to go through the heartache all over again. i know personally i would want to know. I'm glad to hear that u did seek a new Doctor that is taking the time to run these tests, then just a simple conclusion. I hope that theres nothing wrong.
I went through some tests as well, and i was glad, peace of mind i guess.
But hun, i wish u all the best, keep us updated...

[*Bobbie*]

I am going through lots of testing too. It does help to know something is being done. But at the same time the not knowing is enough to make you nervous.

For me it helps to just say to yourself "I WILL have a baby" keep that thought in your head and it makes the rocky TTC journey a little easier. Kinda like two steps forward and one back. Eventually you get to the finish line. Have faith in your body

Lots of