Bobbie,
I am gonna pray that you get your BFP sooooooooon ! I 'm even throwing in half of my

for you.
seriously though, try not to worry yourself too much. just think after it's all over with, you'll be able to start again...its not gonna slow you down as much as you think. It will all work out hon.
As for your B-day, since our b-days are so close, how bout if we meet in the middle and celebrate with lots of wine & cake on the 8th !