[MrsEmmons]

Ok I was really exciting thinking that maybe this was the cycle that we would concieve and have a baby, but I don't know I'm just giving up hopw because I've come to the fact that it probably wont happen for me. I keep thinking that everytime I make a wish I'm not wishing for money, fame, cars, I'm wishing for the chance to become a mom. I mean it seems like it's so easy for everyone to get preggo ( I know it's not), but ever since our miscarriage I just feel like a failure, but after a dream I had last night I dont' feel that way so much anymore., but now I'm giving up we've been trying for a year off and on we got preggo last Jun 06 and miscarried chemical pregnancy, then we stopped trying and then in October we had another m/c after only trying for 2 months, and then again may 07 after trying for about 3 months, cause I got preggo March 20th and miscarried may 7th. I am just so tired of being disappointed and after those m/c I kept trying because I thought I can get preggo there isn't anything wrong, but I'm not preggo. The doc. did an ultrasound of everything down there and a pap and said that everything was fine and that there isn't any reason why I shouldn't be able to have children, but it's like the one thing in the world that I want I can't have and I'm done fighting and trying I'm just giving up because it feels like I'm fighting a battle that I'm never going to win. Thanks to anyone who made it through that, Sorry so long.

[Sabina]

I am really sorry that you are feeling so upset. I hope that you will try to find a reason for all your m/c's and not give up but if you feel in your heart that you can't do it anymore then I totally understand. I wish there was something I could I say to make it better but I know there isn't. I am so sorry.

[*Bobbie*]

AWW Hon.....

I guess the one thing I remember most about any TTC book I've read was... you have to say to yourself " I WILL have a child someday". You really have to think as positive as possible. It may not be an easy road but it will be so worth all the heartache and pain. That is what gets me through each month when AF shows.

I wish I knew what else to say...just know we are always here for you.