[ShannonMVT]

I'm starting to worry...someone snap me out of it! I was all about being relaxed when I started TTC, that I'd still do the charting and OPKs, but try not to get upset if I don't get pregnant right away. And just be okay with things happening when they are meant to happen.

But.

Now I'm starting to worry that it won't happen for me or that it will take a really long time. And I don't WANT it to take a long time.

Part of it is seeing so many people online get BFPs, but most of it is hearing about people I know IRL. The bible study class we used to belong to was all young married couples with no kids. Well, we still get the email updates and so many couples are all announcing that they are pregnant. I am actually really embarrased because my MIL was staying with us and I didn't realize she was laying on the floor in the living room and I started complaining to Dh about how all of them are getting pregnant. And Dh was joking "oh just steal one of their babies" and I was all "I don't want any of their stinky babies. I want my own!" And then later I realize MIL heard everything. Whoops!

What is up with me? Why do I have to compare myself to everyone else and feel like it's not fair if I don't get pregnant quickly? Why do I feel like I have to get pregnant again right away.?

[dee68]

I think what you are feeling is totally normal.....
I know it's been a year for me.....BUT I only started ttc recently & look at me now..., you'll get that BFP hon!! I just know it !!

[Shaustin]

I TOTALLY understand how you feel. Pretty much all of Justin and I's friends have children, or are pregnant, and it stinks. Seriously, over the past 6-9 months it seems like ALL of them have announced they were pregnant, and now they are all starting to have their babies...and well we are still where we started. I don't have any comforting words, because I like you know the pain you are feeling. Just know that God knows your pain, and He is preparing to bless you and your hubby big time. Just pray for lots and lots of patience...that's what I do. I'm sorry you are hurting. I wish we could all snap and get a BIG FAT BFP.

[*Bobbie*]

Shannon.... when I get in that mood I try to look up statistics online about chance of pregnancy each cycle/year for healthy couples. It always makes me feel a little better about the "I want it NOW" feeling

That said it's been 5-6 years of TTC for us so I understand your frustration.

Lots of

BFP's usually come when you are thinking that you are out for sure I hope you get yours VERY soon.

[ShannonMVT]

Thanks ladies. I just feel like I have to get this out there and talk about it with someone. Because it bugs me that I feel this way. I wish I could just be 100% happy for anyone in my life that is pregnant, but I just can't. And I wish I could just be okay with a baby coming when it is supposed to come in God's time, but I'm not. I guess maybe that is something I need to work on and pray that I can give up wanting to control that.

[Shaustin]

I understand, its all so much easier said than done. Don't be too hard on yourself, you have every right to mourn, scream, be angry, etc.

[mellochick]

(((Shannon)))
Ditto all the previous posts. I think all of us feel the same way from time to time - or have felt that way at some point. It has been two years for us and people have gotten to the point where they don't come out and tell me they are pg - so I find out through the grapevine or by getting a shower invitation ??? It's normal to have doubts about when or if you will get your bfp. But you will. Rant, scream, yell, moan - you have every right. He understands. I believe God puts us through this to test our ability to surrender and put our situation in His hands.