[home4mygirl]

It's my first AF since losing the baby on Oct 1st. I don't know if I'm relieved that everything's okay, sad that it really IS over and I didn't accidentally get pregnant between now and then. I just don't know what to feel. I guess I just feel *empty.* I didn't think it was gonna be this hard!

Now we have to wait until December to TTC. It's going to be a loooooooong two months! I'm going to wait until January if I can stand to put it off for one more month so the baby won't be due until two months after dd's birthday, but I don't know if I will be able to wait that long!

[*Bobbie*]

Emma....



I am glad the witch showed up so you know your body is going back to normal... but I understand the sadness with seeing AF the first time after a loss.

I hope you get a BFP very quick once you are TTC again.

[..Jessica..]

I'm happy your first AF showed up, it does show you that your body is now back to normal. The first one is always the hardest!

Good luck with TTC!!! I hope you get your really soon!!

[home4mygirl]

Thanks guys! I wasn't exactly looking forward to it, but didn't think about it too much, really. I knew it was coming, but, you know, it's just AF - had thousands of them before! I can't believe how HARD it is, emotionally. I just had no idea I would be this upset by it! Ugh - I guess I'm not as "healed" as I thought I was!

[Danica]

(((HUGS))) I know the wait for AF can be long but then when we finally get our periods it is a clear sign that we have to accept that we are not pregnant. It is like you are relieved but sad at the same time. I hope you feel better soon. (((HUGS)))