Feeling down.

EmilyRenee · #1 November 13th, 2007, 01:58 PM

Does anyone start feeling down during the tww? I don't know whats wrong with me i should be happy i o'd. I should be happy im in the tww, but i just feel sad...like im just gonna get another bfn again. Like im never gonna get pg. I should be 4 months preggo and have a cute baby belly. Part of me just wants that one back and to not have to be still trying. Now we have been trying for 8 months total. I want this sooo badly and i wish the process wasn't so long. Sorry for the vent im just annoyed with myself.

I think if i get a bfn again we are gonna take a break and just try to enjoy the holidays.

HangingInThere · #2 November 13th, 2007, 02:08 PM

I think we all feel this way sometimes. I know I do. As excited as I am to have O'd and the possibilty of being pg again, there is still that part of me that wants to be where I should have been, especially when I see my sister who is 5 weeks behind where I should have been with her deffinate baby bump. When I see her I just think, gosh that should be me, except bigger. I guess the one true thing that makes me stop is realizing the things that I am getting to do that I might not be able to if I were still pg. Hope that helps and keep your chin up. With all the BFPs on the boards your bond to get yours soon.

..Jessica.. · #3 November 13th, 2007, 02:20 PM

I totally agree!!! I know back in September I thought FOR SURE I got preggers, and I didn't. I felt so low and crappy after that, I went back on the pill before even waiting to see all of the HPT results (I took several tests!)

I guess you have to think about it like this....you're Trying to Conceive your blessing from God, Trying being the key word. Some people take years, others a few cycles. When you get your lil bean, you'll look back and say "I don't know why it took so long, but nothing else matters right now & I'm pregnant!"

I really hope you get your at the end of these 2 weeks!!! Sending lots of baby dust your way!!!

Shaustin · #4 November 13th, 2007, 06:25 PM

I'm sorry you are feeling down. I think we all feel like that at one time or another. Its frustrating when you think of where you should be at, if your loss hadn't happened, but I just try and focus on just how great seeing that BFP will be, when it does happen!! Hope your week gets better!

*Bobbie* · #5 November 13th, 2007, 07:57 PM

I totally understand how you are feeling. It's soooo frustrating when you want something sooo bad and just can't have it yet. Before you O there is so much you can "control" after O all you can do is wait and pray. I think it's the let down from all the planning and dreaming. The 2ww is so stressful sometimes. I wish there was a way to hit fast forward

ShannonMVT · #6 November 13th, 2007, 10:17 PM

I know how you feel. Even though this is our first cycle TTC since the m/c, we have really been "trying" since late June, so almost 5 months. I hate the fact that I have to go through all this TTC business again and not know how long it is going to take to get a BFP.

victorialv · #7 November 13th, 2007, 10:52 PM

I'm sorry you are feeling down. I know exactly what you mean about thinking about where you would be had the loss not happened. I am constantly doing that, it is hard not to.....

I am getting ready to O for the first time after the mc and it is actually been making me really sad. It is a reminder that my body is getting back to normal, and my bean is really gone.

Again, I'm sorry, and I hope it turns out to be a BFP for you!!

keekopeeko · #8 November 14th, 2007, 05:38 AM

hey there..

im sorry you are feeling down...

... but its SO normal! i think what bobbie said is really a hard thing sometimes..before you O you have the control, after...you just have to wait it out... and yeh! thats when your mind starts to wonder!... I always end up thinking about where i should be in my pregnancy and getting sad that i am still "trying" like you said. .... But i always wonder if there really was something wrong with the baby then i guess its better this way instead of going through the whole pregnancy and then losing my baby... i guess..

My Dh and I have been trying since May, so that makes it 7 months for us.... *ssiiiiigh* Id never thought about it like that until you said it...

~Em

Mum2three · #9 November 14th, 2007, 05:51 AM

I understand how your feeling. I was the same way for the last 7 months. Like nothing ever went your way. And your giving all you got and its just not working. I felt the same way. and all that i can say is give it time. I had to. i stopped charting and obsessing over everything last month, and i just found out on Monday that im pregnant. Never lose hope or faith. Cause when you do it wont work out. I know that you want this dearly and you will be able to. Just keep your Spirits high and think i have 2 angels watching over me, and when its time they will help me out. Thats what i kept saying to my self. I'm so sorry that your feeling like this. We are all here for you!!

HUGS!!

EmilyRenee · #10 November 14th, 2007, 06:00 AM

Thanks girls. I do usually feel depressed before af comes so that doesn't help of course. I feel better today. Reading all your encouraging comments helped me out a lot. Keep those bfp's coming.

luvmygirls · #11 November 14th, 2007, 06:37 AM

I'm sorry you feel down, but you will get your bfp soon!

Madison.N.Hailey'sMom · #12 November 14th, 2007, 06:48 AM

Im glad you are feeling better. I know what you mean though. I've been dealing with the same thing since my second loss. All together DH and I have been trying for 17 months (since June 06) I think about Samantha everyday. I would have her right now and she would be going on 6 months old, or with my second he/she would be 2 months old right now. I try my hardest to try and not think about it so much but it does hurt really bad every month when I get a BFN so this time I am going to the doctor's to find out about getting medical help. Maybe that will help me. Again I am glad your feeling better but just remember if you every need to talk we're all here to listen.