[*Bobbie*]

I just have this sinking feeling. I can't explain it. All I want to do is cry. I need to let this out.... sorry to complain so much.

I took three tests today. The dollar store was negative. The FRER only shows a VERY faint line. And the EPT is not as dark as it was last time.

I am not one to "cry wolf" but I really deep in my heart know it's over. I just don't FEEL pregnant. My bbs don't hurt anymore. I don't feel sick to my stomach. I am not hungry much anymore. I don't have to pee all the time. Smells aren't bothering me. I do have a backache and am tired and feel dizzy, but I am not sure it amounts to enough anymore.

I go to have my blood draw again tomorrow. I got the results of the draw they did Friday. They said it was inconclusive. I asked what that meant. She said the levels were between 5-10 for it to come back that way. If levels are supposed to double every 3 days. It should be 10-20 by now. I feel so sad.

I just want to crawl in bed and stay there.

This sucks....with a capital S

Pics
11dpo & 14dpo(sorry it's dark):



Answer/ FRER tests. Four tests. 11dpo, 13 dpo, and two from 14 dpo. 14 dpo first one was with FMU but the urine sat 11hrs... second one was holding urine for about three-four hrs.:
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(14dpo holding PM)
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[MelissaT1973]

Bobbie, that is just not right!!!
But like everyone else has told me, symptoms can come and go and all can still be well. I do understand your gut feeling point, I just hope that it's wrong.
I'm praying for you!

[*Bobbie*]

Thanks Melissa....

I really think I'm out though

By Wednesday I will know for sure when my levels come back. Unless I m/c by then

[..Jessica..]

BOBBIE!!!!

Pllllllllease don't give up on this pregnancy!! Like Melissa said, symptoms come and go during the beginning of pregnancy. Your still testing positive on FRER and EPT, so that's still really good!!! $ store tests don't always work.

I really think your blood work will come back PREGNANT on Wednesday!

I'll be thinking of you! You're definitely in my thoughts and prayers!!!

[keekopeeko]

i hope youre gut is wrong.. but i know how that gut is.. im so sos sosososos sorry you are feeling this way.. STILL hoping for the best though...

~Em

[home4mygirl]

Sweetie.....I'm so sorry! I really, truly hope your gut is wrong! But, if it isn't, we will be here to cry with you....

{{{{BIG HUGS}}}}}

[dee68]

Bobbie,

I am praying that your gut feeling is wrong....
you know I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers

[mellochick]

Oh Bobbie.

Honey - you are in my T&P. I really hope that your gut is wrong and your bloods come back double. Try to hang on to hope. Regardless of what happens you know we are here for you.

[victorialv]

Oh Bobbie, I am sooo sorry! I, like everyone else, hope your gut is wrong.

I will be thinking of you and keeping you in my prayers.

Lots of Hugs!!!

[*Bobbie*]

Girls.... your thoughts and prayers mean the world to me. They really do. I just hate not knowing if this pregnancy is doomed or not. I have never wanted something this bad. I guess I am going to head to bed to read and relax.

Love to all.....

[tparum]

ok sweetie im crying

and i hope ur gut is wrong and i guess we just gotta wait for ur results but please hun stay positive i know easier said then done and keep in mind like i keep saying ur still eairly.

you and bean are in my T&P

sending u big ol

[greenchild]

Bobbie I am so sorry you are going thru this!!! The not knowing part sucks SO bad. Don't worry too much about the gut feeling, I learned with my 2nd pg that my gut feelings can mean absolutely nothing; I was so wrong about that pg and I was so sure, too!
I hope the test results come back much higher!!! You and your little bean are in my T & P.

[Frangipani]

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!
Oh Bobbie I am so hoping this bean will stick for you.

Big fat hugs...you're in my prayers!

[Mum2three]

Hun, I have to say, mabey i have bfp fever or something, but I DO see lines!! not i see dead ppl now. lol.
But hun i really think u are. i feel it. we all go through that once or twice in our pregnancy! heck i still think that every morning. hmmm is my AF just late or what. But like i said tonight in Chat, we i tested Sunday morning and i got a BFN, af was due the next day on monday! well later on in the day i wanted to just test, and i did. 4 internet cheepies i got a BFP! i was freaking cause af should of been there, and now this, could i take it for real this time? after everything that i have went through? Could i trust these internet tests? well later on DH went and bought a box with 2 first response tests, and they cam out + both of them. So hun. im telling u let your guard down, if there was NO hcg in your urine it would be -, not a +..Keep your chin up! did u not say that you were getting a blood test? if u are get one asap!! we are on pins and needles waiting for u to get pregnant! I keep u in my thoughts and prayers every night! we are all here for you no matter what.

Hugs!!

[Danica]

Oh Bobbie, I am so sorry you are having doubts. I really hope and pray that your little bean is safe and snug and growing every day! I hope your hcg levels come back even higher to set your mind at ease.
We are hear for you hun. (((HUGS)))

[lily c]

Bobbie I am so very sorry you are going through this. My thoughts and prayers are with you. I truly hope your gut feeling is wrong.

[*Judy*]

Sorry you are feeling this way Bobbie...you will be in my T&P! Love ya Girl!

[..Jessica..]

I'm with Brandy on this one!!! I can see that second line without even LOOKING for it!

You're preggers Bobbie! We alllll know that!!!

Sending you lots of sticky dust!!!!

[ShannonMVT]

Bobbie, I do hope your gut feeling is wrong.

But I DO understand why you are feeling worried and I don't think it is "wrong" to feel that way. Big to you while you are waiting to find out and I hope this will turn out to be a sticky baby.

[EmilyRenee]

Awe bobbie try to stay positive...think of it this way what if you get good results back from them on wednesday you wouldn't have wanted to stress this whole time about it. I had a gut feeling i was def. not pregnant and i took those tests and was completely shocked. I will be praying for you. I hope everything goes your way girl.