[Danica]

..that the God doesn't give you what you can't handle so I have been thinking lately that maybe I am not meant to have another baby. I don't know. I am just real sad today. Someone needs to whip out a violin for me. The gloomy day isn't helping with my mood.

[Frangipani]

..that the God doesn't give you what you can't handle so I have been thinking lately that maybe I am not meant to have another baby. I don't know. I am just real sad today. Someone needs to whip out a violin for me. The gloomy day isn't helping with my mood. [/b]

I know *exactly* how you feel (except for the another baby part coz I'm TTC numero uno but hey..). It is really hard to go through these ups and downs every month, month after month. If you want to vent and cry and be sad, by all means...we are here for you. That was me yesterday, if you add in some cookie dough and red wine. I really am sorry she came for you again this month.

[heatherrose415]

I am sorry Danica!! I am sure you are menat to have more kids, just not this month! maybe god has a new years surprise for you!!!

[HangingInThere]

I am sorry Danica!! I am sure you are menat to have more kids, just not this month! maybe god has a new years surprise for you!!![/b]

I agree, don't get too down on yourself!! You were meant to have another or God wouldn't have blessed with Aspen in the first place. The fact that you lost Aspen was out of God's hands, so obviously he wants you to have another. Or at least that's how I look at it or I wouldn't be TTC another now, I'd say two is enough.
But to try to take your mind off things at least a little, I was thinking of you the other day as we were driving home from Denver and I saw the sign for Morrison. Evergreen sure got alot of snow out of the last storm, did you guys as well? Is it snowing there today? It's nice and sunny here and probably close to 40 degrees. Maybe you should steal that witch's broom and come visit me. LOL!!

[Danica]

Thanks ladies. I actually fell asleep on the couch after posting this but I at least woke up to clear skies. The clouds are gone and the sun is out so I hope that'll help with my mood. I think I'll head out to run errands, maybe keep me mind off things.

[HangingInThere]

Hey that works too!! Sending you sunny skys and a sunny mood to go with.

[MinDB]

i'm glad you are feeling better than what you initially posted.
don't let yourself too down in the dumps. of course AF hormones don't help us out much when we see the BFN.

i think the most frustrating thing is that you only have one shot at getting pregnant per month and the egg really doesn't hang out as long as i think we all would like it to. so, we DTD like crazy to try to catch this one little egg! and then we have to WAIT for 2 WHOLE WEEKS!!!! and that is extremely frustrating when you get to the end of the 2 weeks and you find out that you did all of that hard work for NOTHING! and then you have to WAIT AGAIN for approximately another 2 WHOLE WEEKS before the next stupid little egg pops out! so basically, if you want to get PG, you have to WAIT AND WAIT AND WAIT AND WAIT in between DTD over and over and over again! it just gets OLD REALLY FAST!

okay, rant over.

sorry about that--i don't know where it came from.

[Shaustin]

I hope your day got better. Darn AF---she is so mean. Seriously, I get heartbroken every time I see her, and I wonder, why?? Why can't I have a baby, one "normal, healthy" pregnancy. It happens to women all around me, but why not me. I just have to keep reminding myself, God knows better than I, and I try to just simply hold on to that, and really focus on and enjoy what I have in my life RIGHT NOW.

ETA some BIG HUGS!!!

[*Bobbie*]

Danica...

I really think more babies are in the plan for you

I look at it like... if babies came easy we wouldn't appreciate how fragile life is. My miscarriages have taught me to treasure my kids more than ever.

once AF is otta here I am sure you will feel better. I hate AF....she is so mean!

[*Judy*]

I am so sorry Danica! I just know that you are ment to have more babies. Honestly I just think of it this way...God has a plan, and he wants me to have a perfect baby and he will do it in his time. He is not denying you...he is making sure the little one you get is perfect! We all have these days, just know we are hear to listen! Love Ya Girl!!!

[victorialv]

You are definitely meant to have another baby, just like I know I am meant to have one at all! I agree with Bobbie, I think these are lessons so that we are actually blessed to appreciate it just that much more.

I am really sorry, and I will be keeping my fingers crossed for you for next month.

[luvmygirls]

I'm glad you're feeling better than before, but I totally understand what you mean. But I'm sure more babies are in the plan for you, and for all of us!

[Danica]

Thanks everyone for all your kind words. I am still pretty down today. I usually don't get like this for my period. Typically I just get snappy and short fused. I don't normally get overemotional and sad and wanting to cry constantly and all. Oh well. I don't think it is so much that I got my period but rather that it just reminds me that I should be pregnant with Aspen. I should be in my 2nd trimester by now. I have to go to a neighborhood progressive dinner in a couple weeks and I am so not looking forward to telling everyone that I had a m/c.

I am going to go out again today to try to keep my mind off of ttc for a while. My friends grandfather also died so I am going to go keep her company. I might not be on again until next week but I hope that when I come back there are some more ladies pregnant! Good luck

--Danica

[..Jessica..]

I'm so sorry the past few days have been hard for you Danica!!!

I know what you mean though, sometimes I think God didn't like me when I got pregnant. I have since become somewhat very religious and have realized that babies will come -- in God's time.

I hope you're feeling better soon!!!! You'll get your before you know it!!!