Trying to remain Optomistic...

HangingInThere · #1 November 30th, 2007, 10:06 AM

Hey Gals,
I need a boost today! I got up when Dh left this morning at 5 am and tested and again, BFN!! I went back to bed and slept til 8 am and when I went to the bathroom this time I was spotting. I am 14 DPO today and my temp fell from 97.7 yesterday to 97.3 today. It's still well above coverline, but I already had a huge dip at 10 DPO that I thought was implantation, so of course this has me thinking that it's the witch, knocking at my door. However the spotting seems to be minimal, haven't had to use a liner yet, and I'm trying to remain optomistic since it hasn't seemed to pick up much. I'm still not having cramps which I usually do and my bb's have still been a little tingly and sore once in a while, but not like they were. I still have frequent urination but that could be because I drank a cup of coffee and a cup of cocoa since it's cold and suppose to snow today. Anyway, I am just really hoping that this is just IB. I have had spotting with all my pregnancys so I never know what to think. However I would say my mood is 10 x's better than it usually is if I am starting. I'm ususually extremely irritable and down and just can't snap out of it. Amazingly enough right now I'm bummed but I'm still cautiously optomistic, that this is it. I sure hope so, because now, not only do I have DH believing I'm pg, well he thought I was before I thought I was, but I also have DD thinking the same thing. She told me yesterday that she misses Ben and wants Daddy and I to have another baby. Then later she told me that she thought there was a baby in my tummy and get this, because I look fat! LOL!! Could be that I have been pretty bloated lately, but my tummy has also been pretty hard too. I started showing a lot earlier with Ben, about 6 to 8 wks, so who knows. I'm sure after 4 pregnancys, your body would automatically just start the prep work right away if you became pg again. At least that's what I'm hoping. Otherwise I suppose I better start hitting the gym. Anyway, I could really use some baby dust here and some encouragement!! I really don't know how I am going to react if it is AF, I'm afraid I will just break down.
Thanks for letting me vent, hope all is well with everyone else!

victorialv · #2 November 30th, 2007, 10:51 AM

Oh, I sure hope this is it for you too.

I will send you some (((baby dust)))!!!

Good Luck!!!

MelissaT1973 · #3 November 30th, 2007, 10:58 AM

Courtney I am sending you all the baby dust and vibes I can muster and then some!!! I don't have the cute icons to go with it, but know in my heart I am pulling for you!!!

HangingInThere · #4 November 30th, 2007, 11:04 AM

Ahhhh, Thanks Melissa!!

I'm really hoping this it too!! Otherwise there is just something seriously wrong with my head!!! I'm going out of my mind here!!!!

Thanks for the boost and Baby Dust Gals I need all you can serve up!!!

..Jessica.. · #5 November 30th, 2007, 11:24 AM

COURTNEY!!!!

Don't feel down!!! You'll get your soon!! I have a gut feeling that this month is your month!!!! Keep in mind, I didn't get my BFP until 18DPO!!!

Here's my baby dust -- I won't need it until March!

heatherrose415 · #6 November 30th, 2007, 11:29 AM

I felt like i was reading ALL of my symptoms, thats why I thought for sure i was preg. and my 2 yr old had even pointed to my belly and said "baby". but sadly I started today

and I must have been out of my mind, LMAO.

BUT you missed your period, which is a GREAT sign, the biggest sign before that BFP.

So I think it could VERY well be IB and maybe you will get a positive tomorrow, I hope!!!!

HangingInThere · #7 November 30th, 2007, 01:15 PM

Thanks Girls!! I hope you all are right, however as the day wears on I'm just getting more and more down. I know I shouldn't feel this way but my emotions are just getting the better of me. All I want to do is go to bed and

!!
I'll keep you updated. So far I'm still spotting but still very light, still no liner, so I guess I should still have some hope, right? I also looked back at my journal from DS and I had actually written in there that I took my first HPT at 12 DPO and got a negative and retested on 14 DPO and got a very faint positive, same on 15 DPO. And they were both such faint positives that I had to tear the tests apart to be sure. So, I guess I should hold on to that last string of hope huh? I just felt like all the signs I have had meant this was my month. I hope it still is!! Please God, let this be my month!!

luvmygirls · #8 November 30th, 2007, 02:35 PM

I hope that spotting is just IB and it stops soon! I hope you get your bfp!! Here's some baby dust for you!

WendyH · #9 December 1st, 2007, 07:53 AM

Hi,

I have been having the exact same symptoms and feelings!! The only difference is I just had my m/c on 10/22-10/25. I am still waiting for my first period. I started to have a really faint spotting only when I wipe, and it's more of a brownish color, not enough to use a liner. Then I got this crazy thought in my head that it is IB. I have been so bloated, and very down and irritable. To be honest, when I first saw the spotting, I was so excited that I was getting AF because I would be back on track. I wish I had a test here at home, I would be taking it for sure!
On a side note.... the last blood test that I took to check my HCG levels was on 11/21 and it was at 9. They called for me to go back in and take one more test to make sure I am below 5. I am going today, and I still have this crazy thought that they will call me and tell me it went up!! I need to stop getting my hopes up! I just want to be preggers so badly!!

Good luck to you! I'll keep you posted!