[susanaa]

I was out almost all day long with my friend. She wanted to go shopping for her daughter, and since she is new in town doesnt know where to go so asked me to take her.

She was trying for a year, and fell preg with her child. She knows how hard it has been for me with the 2 miscarriages.

So there we are. The baby shop.. Full of blue and pink lovely clothers; cute little pillows, play mats, dolls, teddy bears, little socks, little shoes,

Tears where hidden, I felt so bad. I felt OMG I would have had all this at home now if I wouldnt have miscarried my first time, I would have been now 33 weeks!!

Then I felt kindda tired so I sat for a while, and a cute baby bump came next to me! A lady that was preggo sat beside me and I just couldn't stop looking at her bump! She was like "Am so tired!" Then I was like "Yea, I can imagine! with that bump! how far along r u?" She was like "7 months! I just started to shop for my baby today" I was silently like "thank you, you just killed me "

I will be honest, I am still hurt, a lot.! We planned our future, and having a baby was supposed to have happened, I know it's God's will, and it's how our destiny is supposed to be, but shouldn't our turn be soon?

I hated today, I hated 2007.

Sorry about the rant.

For those who don't know much about me:
I miscarried my first on July 1st by D&C, heartbeat stopped at 8w. Fell preg again and got BFP at 10dpo on Nov 3rs, 2007. Went for u/s at 6w, and was diagnosed with a blighted ovum. Chose to miscarry the natural way, and it was horrible!!!

Literally, 2007 was hell for us. I hope 2008 is hidding happy moments for us.

[Madison.N.Hailey'sMom]

I'm really sorry that you had to go through all that. I've been through times like that. Right now I have 2 really close friends that are pg back to back and sometimes it hurts to think that I want that too. I went through almost the same as you did. I got pg in Augest 06 everything was going fine. Heard heartbeat at 7w5d. Went in at 12w because I started bleeding and found out that I lost the baby at 8w2d. 3 days after my first app. I ended up having a D&C on oct 26th 06. I got pg again in Jan. 07 and found out at 5w when I started to bleed again that it was a blight ovum. It sucks so much but I just try to keep positive and keep telling myself that I'm trying and thats all I can do for now. I hope things get better for you. If you ever need to vent or anything you've come to the right board. Welcome

[heatherrose415]

*tears* i know that pain all to well!!

I told my husband I will NEVER show off my prego belly again because now I know how many moms who have lost babies see it andcry inside. I know realistically I will be showing it off, but will be so cautious of what I say around others.

You have every right to still be upset! I lost mine on the 17th of july and it still hurts alot I know I have two kids, but my future was always with three!! and my 3rd was an angel and now I wonder if I will ever get my LIVE third child.

I hope you get your first live baby really soon!!

((HUGS))

[Brittanie]

You know, I can't help but think, if she's 7 months and JUST started shopping....maybe she's had a previous loss too?


It DOES hurt though. I know, I really do. My best friend had her baby 6 weeks after I lost my Cora, so for all intents and purposes they're the same age. When I was 31ish weeks pregnant I went to visit my best friend and sister for a few days, and ended up watching Katy for a while, while I was shopping for Erin. Since she has red hair, and I have reddish hair, they thought Katy was mine. It hurt so bad every time someone looked at me with raised eyebrows that I had such a young child and was pregnant again.


Cry honey. You're allowed.

[Frangipani]

aww Suzan, I'm really sorry you had to go through that. It sucks because you never know when it will hit you again too. (I burst into tears in Target one day when I walked past all the cute Halloween costumes for babies). I really hope 2008 is kinder to you (and all of us).

[Danica]

I am sorry that you had such a bad day. It must be so tough going through so much in 1 year. I hope that you feel better soon and that you get a BFP soon too. (((HUGS)))