[tparum]

the only one still up

[Christal]

No im up I was over in may ddc lurking and getting all sad mad emotional. I dont know why I go in there.

[tparum]

awww its cause u feel like u should still be in there thats y. and hearing of another loss just hurts so much

[Christal]

You know whats really sad is you try to stay positive and think it wont happen again but when you think about it you know it will happen again to some great people who really want to have a baby and really deserve to. Yeah I am still dealing with my loss everytime I see a preg person I get upset thinking that should be me and when I go to May DDC I really get mad because I should be there and I should be half way through my preg. and not TTC again and wondering how long it will take this time and how crazy scared im am going to be when it happens again. Ok lol sorry I guess I needed to vent a little. I will stop now.

[tparum]

o vent away weve all been there believe me my first loss was at little over 27 wks. my sec. was at 25 wks and 3 rd was at a bit over 20 wks. so ive kinda been there and see what ur saying.

[*Bobbie*]

I lost mine at 14 weeks and still go to my DDC. I guess you just really get to know the members there and still want to keep an eye on how they are doing. At the same time it opens old wounds every time I lurk there to see how they are doing. I don't go there much anymore. Not many would even remember who I am.

I do have some advice.....It helps if you delete the link if you have it in your favorites. Sometimes it's easy to just click the link, but if you have to actually go through the menu to get to the board you will find yourself there less frequently

Hugs....

Bobbie

[..Jessica..]

I had my loss at 5 weeks 1 day, and I still go into the February '08 DDC.

Now, everytime I open the board, I start tearing up. It's getting WAY too hard. I think I'm gonna have to stop going over there!!!

to you hun!!