I'm sort of a lurker...

Timberlyn · #1 December 23rd, 2007, 06:48 AM

I haven't really posted much about lossing my baby this September cause I didn't know how to handle it... I had just had my son, Aedan, this June... And next thing I know I am finding out that I am pregnant with baby #2, and I got pregnant just 8 weeks after I gave birth to him while breastfeeding (yeah I proved that one was a myth)... Well, about a week and a half later I ended up miscarring my precious little baby; we decided to name the the baby Judith Aleigh Davila, since I thought it was a girl...

On one hand I had lost this little darling that I was growing inside of me and in the other hand I had my beautiful son that lights up my world everyday... I was so confussed on what I should say or do or even how I should feel...

But, sure enough I ended up getting pregnant again... I just tested on Thursday and it was a :BFP... Meaning I will be due August 24th, 2008... I am soo happy about this new baby, by I am crying inside because everyday I think about how I would be so much further along right now if my baby girl would have still been growing inside of me... At the moment I would have been 19 weeks & 1 day pregnant (the same time in my pregnancy with Aedan when we found out we were having a little boy)... So you can see my pain, though I do bet you ladies have equaling hard and painful stories like my or worse to tell...

Timberlyn

*Bobbie* · #2 December 23rd, 2007, 08:08 AM

Hi and

I am sorry for the loss of your baby.

Congrats on the BFP.

For me I would just try to think things happen for a reason. I know tons of people say that and it doesn't really help, but for me I try to belive in it for my own healing.

Lots of sticky dust

for that little one growing inside you.

You son is a cutie!

You can also check out the Pregnancy after Loss forum. Seeing as not too many of us here are PG you may be able to find more support there. You are very welcome to stay here though if you feel more comfortable. There are no rules as to where you can and can't post

Again Welcome and Congrats!

Melanie0507 · #3 December 23rd, 2007, 08:31 PM

Welcome! Glad you decided to post! I understand your mixed emotions and that is completely normal and expected! You can definitely be excited for what you have (both your son and your new pregnancy) while at the same time sad over the baby you lost. I hope things get better and I hope you have a super sticky bean! Congrats!