[polbilly]

well I just dont "feel" like putting myself through this again this month. I think about getting pregnant about 100 times everyday, and I feel like im taking away from my son. so this month im not temping im not using opk's the only thing i will do is make sure that I BD enough. Im soooo tired of only getting BFN after doing everything right. then seeing people that arent trying or dont want babys ( I work in a hospital see it all the time) Or worse yet people that have tons of kids that dont take care of them or the 14 year olds we get that are pregnant....... Why cant the people like us that want them more than anything and can raise them properly get pregnant..........ugh Im just taking a break this month from all the extra work

thanks for the vent

melissa

[MinDB]

i hear you!
you know, i've noticed that both times i've gotten pg were when i didn't focus on it. just BD'd every other day and took one test right around AF time. DH always says it will happen when you don't think about it.

[keekopeeko]

well... i know what you mean...about all of it... Just relax and enjoy yourself this month...

~Em

[..Jessica..]

I know what you mean! I agree with Mindy and Em, just try to relax and go with the flow.

[*Judy*]

I'm sorry it is such stress for you Melissa! I think you are making a great decision to just take it easy this month. I know I kind of feel like a maniac with it all sometimes. It just weighs on a person, and we just need to take a vacation. Good luck and I hope your BFP comes this month!

[Danica]

(((HUGS))) I agree with the other ladies. Taking a month off isn't a bad thing. I hope that you can find some time to relax and just enjoy being with your husband and little guy

[MrsPoe]

I get feeling the same exact way usually after af shows up and then a couple days later I am back on the rollercoaster. It is so hard to "give up" completely on ttc. I have not been temping for the past couple of months in hopes that it will just happen. Opk's are failing me over the past couple of months. So I think I am in this with you. Kind of taking a break! I am not getting enough bd'ing in though because of dh's schedule so we are just hoping for a miracle. Oh and when I gave up ttc a little over a year ago is when I got pregnant, so it can happen. I hope it works for you. If nothing else maybe you can live your life without being so consumed with "baby" on the brain. I wish my mind would let go of it too, but that just hasn't happened yet. GL!

[Frangipani]

I have a really bad attitude this month too. I even thought maybe I shouldn't come on here since I'm being so negative. Plus, I'm supposed to be ovulating-today-but DH's stupid work decided he has to work tomorrow so he had to go to bed really early. So, we missed today. I just think that all the stars are aligned against us, you know!?