not feeling positive!!

KaidysMummy · #1 January 11th, 2008, 04:27 AM

hello ladies, sorry to go on but i dont know where else to go really, id go to my birth board but most of them havent been through this!!

basically, i have already passed the time i m/c'd first time, and the 2nd time is this weekend so i donno if that is worrying me!! symptoms keep coming and going to getting me worried, heardly there yesterday but today sore boobs etc, so its all getting me up and down!

last nite i felt so normal that i convienced myself i had lost the baby and was just waiting to bleed - how morbid and negative is that!! is unbelievably scared all of a sudden, i was soo laid back last week now im a wreck! i think maybe i have let it sink in and im scared of anything happening again! if i can get to this time next week i will be over the moon i think! i should get a scan date for the week starting the 21st, so hopefully that will go well!!

ive not spoke to DF, well i did kinda last night in my down spell and said its all gonna end in tears anyway, he was like why and i said i just know!! he said well if you do your going back on the pill or we will use some other kinda of contraceptive, which i know he didnt mean nastily just it would be 3 times in a row so i think i want this more now knowing he thinks like that!! when it happened last time he wasnt keen on trying again and wanted to wait a while, which i agreed to but we had a spur of the moment thing and bam!!

sorry to go on as i know this is what you all want so badly and i am moaning about it, god i need to shut up now, lol! sorry!

sam xx

#2 January 11th, 2008, 04:36 AM

You never have to shut up here, I'm so sorry you're feeling down. It's only natural to feel this way after going through a miscarriage. I would feel the same way.....just hoping to get to the next stage and you can't relax.

Try not to stress too much, I know that's not easy and I'm sure we'll all be told that when we first get pregnant.

Be strong and I'm sure you and your little bean will be perfect.

I never had any symptoms with any of my pregnancies, even on the one I lost, so don't try to read too much into symptoms even if all your pregnancies have been the same.

I wish you all the happines and joy in your 9 month journey!!!

heatherrose415 · #3 January 11th, 2008, 08:59 AM

I am so sorry you are having such a hard time, I think it is perfectly normal to feel the way you are feeling when you are prego after a loss, I am sure I will be a huge wreck too!!!

we are all here for you praying and rooting for you and your baby, who will be just fine!!!

-Heather

notrub98 · #4 January 11th, 2008, 09:03 AM

I'm so sorry you are having a tough time, and honestly, I think what you are experiencing is normal (unfortunately). I think all of us panic one some level because of what has happened to us, and I'm not sure you can control that, and really - you shouldn't. Your feelings are valid, and they are just something you have to work through right now.

Happy thoughts and sticky bean vibes headed your way!