[susanaa]

I went to see my doc.

My uterus wasn't still clean.. The ultrasound showed remainings from the sac and I was just done with it and told doc to just remove it.

OMG, he did. He didnt even give me any kind of anesthesia.. the nurse just game me an injection on my bum and waited for the doc to come. He told me that what was about to perform is called suction and curettage I was like
It hurted so bad that I was on tears the whole process holding the nurses' hand to tight. My DH couldn't make it as he was busy so I was there alone. It took about 10min to finish.. Why was I born as a GIRL!?!?!?!? We suffer so much!!

Anyway, he finished it and told me to lay down for 5 min. Then they called me to have another u/s and it showed my uterus to be clean.. then saw the doc and told me that I had a huge egg as if it didnt die but just grew what the hell does that suppose to mean? I asked him what should I do.. then he said that it doesnt worry him much but it can affect our TTC so he was like "I can prescribe for u to take BCP for a month until it disappears or u know what? there can be a possibility for it to disappear" Then I was like "isnt it better to take the pills??" then he was like "it doesnt measure much, it's only 1.5cm, I would worry if it was 4cm and above"

I dont know what is happening to me. All the bad luck has just been destinated to happen to me.. Why me.. what have I done to deserve all this, I swear I will make a great mother, my husband is the best man in the world.. what if his feelings change bec of whats happening to me? I know he wants a baby madly!

Anyway, the only good part is that doc told me to ttc from now, but next time if I get AF then I will have to see him at ovulation time to see if the huge egg is still there.. if yes, then I think I have to take the BCP for a month

I dont really know how worse this can get. I am just sitting here praying for something good to happen to me once and for all

Sorry for the long story, me and my silly miserable life.

[Lv2Mommy]

Yikes, I'm sorry you had to go through all that. And certainly no need to apologize for anything - vent away, that's what everyone is here for. I truly hope that things work out great for you and you get lucky with the ttc this month and you & DH get the chance to finally be awesome parents.

[Danica]

HUGS. I am so sorry. That procedure sounds just terrible. I would have cried the whole way home. It just isn't fair. I know that it is hard to stay positive when it feels like everything is stacked against you but try to just have faith that everything will end up right and perfect. I hope that you and DH get a BFP real soon. BIG HUGS

Sending you lots of love and positive, healing energy.

[notrub98]

What a miserable ordeal, I am so sorry to hear it!

Big hugs to you and your DH at this hard time. I don't really understand the large egg part as I've not heard of that before, but I hope that it goes away for you with AF!

[luvmygirls]

I am so sorry you had to go through that, it sounds awful. I hope you can begin to heal, physically and emotionally.

[..Jessica..]

Oh hun, I'm SO sorry you went through this today!!!!!! And to be alone during it, that must have been so hard!!! I'm SOOOOO sorry!!!!

As for the BCP, it could get you pregnant! Just miss a few here and there!! My God-Daughter is a baby that was conceived the month after her mom stopped taking the pills. So, hopefully it won't take too long for it to completely leave your system.

Wishing you luck!!!!! I hope you get pregnant soon!!!!

[*Bobbie*]

No woman should have to go through a D&C awake. I can't belive he did it like that. I am pissed sitting here reading that. If it were me I would be finding a new doctor. Honestly.

I am sooo sorry for what you are going through I just want to

I would call the office back and ask the nurse to look in your chart and explain what he was talking about. It is hard to remember but...he is your doctor and you are the patient. You pay him, so he works for you. You deserve to be told in plain terms what exactly he was saying. I too have no idea what that meant.

Vent away...we are here for you... and we have lots of shoulders around here to cry on.

[susanaa]

No woman should have to go through a D&C awake. I can't belive he did it like that. I am pissed sitting here reading that. If it were me I would be finding a new doctor. Honestly.

I am sooo sorry for what you are going through I just want to

I would call the office back and ask the nurse to look in your chart and explain what he was talking about. It is hard to remember but...he is your doctor and you are the patient. You pay him, so he works for you. You deserve to be told in plain terms what exactly he was saying. I too have no idea what that meant.

Vent away...we are here for you... and we have lots of shoulders around here to cry on.

[/b]

Actually he does it a lot, and I trust him bec after visiting other docs I felt relaxed with him. He is against all those curettage surgeries (I didnt have d&c, it was s&c) where u have general anesthesia and he considers they play with our uterus wall, he also said that its easy to do this bec there isnt a baby but just a piece of the sac remnants. It hurted so so so bad but it took only around 7 mins I would say and it was all period like pains but severe ones, then when he was done it was gone, mostly.

He used plastic things and threw them after.. It's something that sucks stuff, I heard it sucking things, u know, the one which u press and sound like "ick".

I dont really know about the big follicle and wont actually worry about it coz he didnt seem concerned. My doc is a professional fertility, hormone, gynecologist, and Obstetrician/Gynecologist, he is certified by a well known institution/committee, so that is a plus.

Well.. it happened, and I am happy that thing measuring 1cm is gone, I cant believe something so silly like a 1cm piece messes with everything.

[Melanie0507]

Suzan. I am so sorry you have had to go through everything you have recently. I hope that now all the retained tissue is gone, I really hope you get your BFP soon.