awww, im sorry
are you sure it wasnt a dream of your angel baby? I had a dream a few months after my loss, before TTC, of holding a newborn, but I knew it was my angel baby I was dreaming of.
either way, you definately want this and I am so sorry its so hard and has taken so long

I wish your dream would come true NOW!!! It will soon!!!!
((HUGS))