[Danica]

Last Thursday 3075
Yesterday 3480

Guess what the doctors said was true. I kind of expected to still m/c but I thought my numbers would go a little higher than that. Don't know what else to say

[Madison.N.Hailey'sMom]

Awww Danica I'm so sorry that you going through this again. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

[tparum]

im so sry ur going threw this sweety you are in my thoughts and prayers

[luvmygirls]

Oh Danica I am so sorry! I really hoped things would go better for you! I will be thinking of you, and hoping that your awesome positive attitude helps you through this tough time.

[mellochick]

Oh Danica,

I'm so sorry this is happening again! It really sucks. Please take care of your self and keep us posted if you feel up to it.

[jademyst13]

I'm so sorry honey... We are here for you whenever you need us

[babyblue]

oh Danica, I am so sorry.. How awful for you to have to go thru this again. You are in my thoughts.

[KaidysMummy]

aww hun im soo sorry to hear that!!

xx

[keekopeeko]

noooooooooooooooo

[Danica]

I guess I just would like to just find out what is going on. I am going to order the pills Stephanie recommended to just get Travis on a good multivitamin too for the next go round. I also plan on going on complete pelvic rest this next time. I was comparing these last two pregnancies with Naden's and I just feel I gave my body time to grow a baby and only that with Naden because Travis was in Florida for the 1st 3 months. I don't care that the doctors say that it isn't sex or blah blah blah. Next time I will not go snowboarding either. I will take all precautions and just put my foot down with anything I am uncomfortable with. I already told him this and he is okay with it. I know it sounds bad but I just kind of am tired of talking about will I m/c or will I not. I am sure I will have a hard time once I start bleeding but I just want to get it over with. I think I am coping better with this one but maybe it's just cause I am numb to everything right now. Whatever. I don't know. UGH

[..Jessica..]

Danica, I'm so sorry you're going through this again!!!!

[Lv2Mommy]

Awww I'm so sorry you have to go through all this again - it's completely sucks.

[heatherrose415]

oh danica I am soooooooooo extremely sorry you are going through this once again Its just not fair!

Please know it is NOT your fault!!! Nothing you did caused this....

but I understand you being extremely careful necxt time, as I am doing the same thing. no sex, no anything that causes me stress or alot of movement.

[steph&dan]

Danica, I am so sorry. This sucks! This sucks for all of us here, who keep getting stuck like this. It makes me angry when there are people popping babies out left and right, and they don't even want theirs. I have complete faith that things will come around for you and you will have another baby! I know this one doesn't look good. When all hope is gone, you have to find new hope. And be kind to yourself, take care of yourself, treat yourself the best you can!

[HangingInThere]

Danica,
I'm so sorry to hear this!! It truely isn't fair to see you going through this again. I had really hoped you would get better news this time. I do like to hear you sounding positive to continue trying, I was afraid you would give up on the idea all together, at least for a while. I hope you are able to find out what is going on so that you can have a healthy bean again. Keep your chin up and if you need to talk, I'm hear for you!

Hugs & Loves sent your way,

[HippyMomOf4]

Oh no girl!!! i'm so sorry, why does life have to be so unfair sometimes!

[Danica]

Thanks everyone. It is kind of weird. I am sad but at the same time I am okay with it all. Guess I've accepted that is has happened and was out of my control. I still question why I chose this path for myself (I believe that we all choose our paths before we come into the world). When I die I will kick my spritual self. UGH

I don't know when we will try again. I am not really thinking about it. Well, I am thinking about it just because I want the kids to be close in age but I can't really imagine getting pregnant again. How long do you think it takes a uterus to heal? Maybe we got pregnant too soon after our last m/c... but I really don't think that is the case. I think I was all healed down there and my previous m/c went relatively smoothly. No cramping, not much bleeding, just blood for a couple days then I passed the baby then the blood went away and I got my period 32 days later. I hope this one goes as smoothly. If I disappear for a few days you know why, I probably started bleeding. Not looking forward to it but am in a way too

Sorry if I sound cold to anyone. I really do care for this baby but I think that I'd like to move on and heal now.

[Brittanie]

I don't think you sound cold. After all, you've had the prospect of miscarrying for a while now and you're in limbo. You're stuck where you are at the moment, unable to move forward in your grief. I think that it will be a relief when the miscarriage happens because you'll then be actually able to grieve.


As for the "choosing" for yourself...well, I believe that I chose my circumstances with Cora too. But I believe that the choice was either to get her for the short time I had her and lose her, or not to get her at all. And I chose to have her in my life, even though it would eventually cause me pain, because not getting her at all was worse. Maybe that's the way yours worked too.


I'm sorry that you're having to go through this again.

[ShannonMVT]

I am sorry sweetie. Take care of yourself and we are here if you need us.

[Frangipani]

I don't think you sound cold at all. I really do wish that this were turning out differently for you.