[..Jessica..]

It's that time of night again!!!!

Who's up with me??????

[Brittanie]

It's about time!


I'm sort of having a freak out time about my weight tonight.

[..Jessica..]

I drank 3 litres of water today, and walked by that scale SO many times. I wanted to get on it soooo bad, but I didn't.

Now I just ate 2 chocolates and I feel like crap for doing it!!!

[jademyst13]

Ughh my official weigh day is Fridays, but I can't help standing on the scale everyday. It taunts me! Hopefully I will see progress tomorrow because as always through the week my weight is higher. I have been working my butt off and I want to see some results!

[Brittanie]

According to the BMI I'm obese.


Yeah, me.


Unfortunately I used to be anorexic, so that's really messing with my head right now. I weigh more than I ever have in my life except when I was pregnant. I want to throw up the dinner I just ate (I ate at 9:45 pm and I hadn't eaten since noon).


It's going to be a rocky couple of days for me.

[..Jessica..]

Jenn -- what kind of program are you doing??

Brittanie -- I keep getting the feeling of wanting to throw up too...OMG!!!

According to my BMI, I'm obese too!

[jademyst13]

It doesnt' seem to me that you would be considered obese. Don't let that get you down! Geez why do we do this to ourselves?

[Brittanie]

I think the bmi is a bunch of crock, but still that word...ugh.

[jademyst13]

I think it depends on each person and not some set chart somewhere. I weigh alot more than you and I know that I am obese, but yeah I hate to hear (or admit) it

[..Jessica..]

All I know is -- I want to weigh a certain weight by this time next year!

[Brittanie]

I've always weighed more than I "look" like I do. Apparently I have a very dense (therefore heavy) skeleton.


But I AM working on it. That's what I need to keep telling myself. I'm trying to eat healthy and I'm working out 3 times a week. I'm trying not to let my crazy sick recovering-anorexic brain take over and make me flip out.

[..Jessica..]

That's really good that you're working on it!!

BTW -- did you do your yoga today?

[Brittanie]

I didn't do yoga. >_<

But I DID do all the laundry and all the dishes and clean up the front room floor!

[jademyst13]

I always used to look smaller than my weight, now I don't even know. I don't think I will let my mind accept how big I am really. However I am working really hard at it now. Eating much healthier than ever before and working out like crazy or at least it seems hahaa
Of course the thing is I want to TTC starting in about a month and I haven't even finished losing what I gained with my last pg. I was hoping to lose 20 (I gained 11 with the pg) However in the month of Dec I only lost 1 lb and this year so far I have lost 4. Hopefully tomorrow will be another good weigh in.

[..Jessica..]

I did laundry today too!

I'm sure you'll lose those 20lbs, Jenn!!!! I bet you will!!!

[Brittanie]

I've never really worked out consistently before. So I'm excited that DH and I are doing this. Maybe I can actually get into the shape that I want.

[..Jessica..]

That's awesome that you and your DH are doing this together!! Dwayne is already fit -- which drives me nuts!

[Brittanie]

Well, DH did all the gaining when I was pregnant!! It was mostly his idea to start working out.

[..Jessica..]

HAHAHA on your DH for gaining your pregnancy weight!!!

That's awesome that he decided to do this!!! I bet it'll bring you two closer than you already are!

[jademyst13]

DH is trying to lose some weight here too. Of course guys lose faster, which isn't fair
However this time he is actually on board with getting better groceries, not eating candy and soda. It was always hard in the past to watch him eat like that when I wasn't trying to.