I haven't been around b/c DH and I are in Chicago right now, visiting some friends. Thursday we left for the airport, and I felt like I was dealt another blow. DH"s brother called to tell us that his wife is pregnant- -accidentally-- and due June 14th, which is 2 days before my due date.

They were afraid to tell us at Christmas, b/c they knew it would upset me. They have a 9 month old little boy already. So I tried really hard to fight back the tears but I had to go into the restroom at the airport and just cry it out.
Then we finally arrived here in Chi-town Thursday night, and our friends took us out for dinner.. and during the conversation broke the news to us that she is pregnant with #2. They have a little girl that just turned 2. Man, I just felt like I got kicked in the stomach Thursday. I was in so much pain that day.. DH and I had been having a conversation that morning on the way to the airport about how much I want to be pregnant and of course he thinks I should be over it all by now..

and then I got a double blow that day.. wow, it was a tough day for me.
I am doing better though, just so ready to get past wanting to be pregnant and longing for another child.. and ready to see it actually happen for us. We are having lots of fun and DH and I have found some time to BD while we are here..

so I am really hoping that things turn around soon. That makes 6 people close to me - friends and family- that have announced pregnancies since I miscarried. It's just a lot to take.
I have told myself I am not going to take any OPKs this month and just let everythign happen on it's own. It's not hard right now b/c I don't have any with me, but I know I'll be fighting the urge when we get home on Monday. DH will be out of town Tuesday thru Friday on business, but I told him we're going to have to squeeze in a quick BD session Tuesday morning since I'm thinking he'll be gone on or near my peak fertile days..
Anyway, hope you all are doing great and I will be on more when I get home.