[babyblue]

I am just so lost right now.. am I the only one who feels like I can burst out bawling one minute, and then scream at the top of my lungs the next? I swear, I feel like I can’t control my emotions right now.

DH and I got into a HUGE fight this morning. I told him yesterday that we needed to get in a quick BD session this morning b/c he is leaving today and won’t be home until late Friday night. Today is CD13 for me, which means I should be ovulating soon and of course he will be gone. So did I get any this morning? No. He kept making excuses b/c he had to pack, and DS was there (he was in the other room watching TV, no where near us so it would have been really easy to shut the door for 5 minutes). So finally, he caved, but let’s just say, he couldn’t get in the romantic mood.. so it never happened. I was so p!ssed off. I know he was rushing around trying to get ready and had work on the brain all morning, not me, but I just lost it. He travels so much, and next month he’s supposed to be gone the same week but for SIX days instead of 4.. so I feel like my chances are shot unless I ovulate really late or really early. So we got into an argument and he kept telling me I was obsessing and that it wasn’t a “competition”.. I know it’s not a competition! But I DO feel like I time is running out for me, b/c I don’t want our children to be too far apart in age. He doesn’t get that. I had to push and push him to try for #2, so we began trying later than I wanted to.. and then with my loss, I just feel like my window of opportunity is escaping with each month that passes. Ugh.. and he told me that getting pregnant is all I think about.. which is sort of true I guess.. but he’s on the opposite spectrum where he really doesn’t care if it happens or not anytime soon, and that makes me mad.

I know I picked the fight this morning, but I am so frustrated, and what I need from him is sympathy, not frustration when I get upset. He thinks that my last pregnancy ended the way it did because we “tried too hard”.. because I was keeping track of my ovulation, which I didn’t do with my first pregnancy. He also thinks I obsess about everything b/c I am on JM so much. He doesn’t get that I need you guys to talk to and vent to b/c he gets sick of hearing about it.. and I don’t even want to try to talk to my friends who have never experienced loss. I am so scared to take an OPK b/c I don't want to get that let down feeling if I am ovulating while he is gone.

Thanks for reading my long rant.. I am just so incredibly frustrated and want to be my happy-go-lucky self again!

[Madison.N.Hailey'sMom]

I'm sorry that you got into that fight today. It is really hard sometimes to talk to our DH's because they dont understand everything that we're going through. Mine just looks at all the money that I spend on OPK, HPT's, and RX's. Sometimes I want to scream like you when DH gets that way. I really hope that you O late this month so that you will have a better shot when DH gets back.

[Danica]

HUGS, I am sorry. I know exactly what you mean about feeling like time is running out. I am sorry he is traveling, Travis told me today that he might be gone next month (around when I will probably O) which sucks. I guess the only thing I do is make it a point to BD just for fun even when I am not O'ing so he can't say I only want to dtd to get pregnant. I know that men don't always understand our drive and NEED to have another baby. I hope that you O late or early so you have a good chance this month and next. big HUGS

[jademyst13]

I'm sorry hun

[babyblue]

Thanks for the encouragement. You all are the best!

I guess the only thing I do is make it a point to BD just for fun even when I am not O'ing so he can't say I only want to dtd to get pregnant. I know that men don't always understand our drive and NEED to have another baby. I hope that you O late or early so you have a good chance this month and next. big HUGS[/b]

I do that too.. try to DTD all times of the month, and the past few days we had been going at it a lot while we were on vacation.. but my DH is the same way. He says that is the only time I am interested in doing it, which isn't true.. but I guess I do take more initiative those times of the month.

[Brittanie]

I have nothing to add, just

[*Judy*]

Hugs!!! Sorry about that...men just really don't get it. I hope it works out and maybe the travel time will change you get your BFP really soon!

[ShannonMVT]

I'm sorry hon. My Dh is the same way about thinking I need to "just relax" and sometimes I could just smack him because I don't believe all that BS about just relaxing = getting pregnant. He's also not in a big hurry to get pregnant and is more of "it will happen when it happens" and I know that does drive me nuts. Because I want it to happen NOW. So just know that you are not alone....

I hope you get your BFP soon.

[greenchild]

ohhun, I SO understand what you're going thru!!! Me & DH went thru the same thing and had a HUGE fight over it - the money, the "planned" sex, that we HAD to try EVERY month, etc. He was not into any of it, at all. I mean, kids were fine if they happened to come along, but if they didn't, well he certainly wasn't going to do anything to MAKE it happen.
Then we got pg the next cycle. Then we lost that one, and then we found out that my FSH was borderline high so it became a "now or never" thing. Then with all that recently happened . . . he is totally on board now, willing to do anything and the sweetest guy I could ever imagine.

I hope your DH gets with the program and you guys get that BFP, you deserve it!!

[dee68]

I am sorry you and DH had a fight ! ~HUGS~
at first I was really the only one who wanted to try again right away.....and Mick just want not on board with it at all and it did cause a few minor fights....I did find as soon as I backed off with pressuring him, he was more into it than I would have ever thought. My clock was ticking too ! I am 39 now, so yes I know about time running out....
I think sometimes when we let the men in our lives "think" they are taking the reigns, it is easier on us

Good Luck !!

[..Jessica..]

I'm sorry Amber!!!!

[Melanie0507]

Amber! I am so sorry you had a rough morning with dh before he left. I sincerely hope that you O later than you think and that you get your beautiful BFP later this month!

[*Bobbie*]

I too am in a crappy mood lately..... so I have no words *of wisdom*.......


but want to send a TON of and tell you that Dee got PG and had sex like a month before.... LMAO.....it actually was like a week...but ya never know! So I say relax and think of swimming sperm getting hit in the head with the egg. Watch.... this will sooooo be your month!